The Classism That is Jumping Out in the Horse World in 2020

2020 has been a literal hell of a year and we aren’t even all of the way through it yet. With all of the bad moments, I would say one of the only plus sides of this year is that it is helping expose a lot of the unfair aspects of society that we have become complacent about and haven’t talked about enough in the past. Obviously, this is happening on a major social level that cannot be ignored unless you’re living under a rock, but I want to talk about the sheltered, horse world aspect of this revelation. You see, more and more people are finally stepping up to talk about the major lack of diversity in the horse world and the classism that is rampant in this sport. Because of the influx of new, loud voices, it’s becoming harder for people who don’t care to sweep it under the rug and ignore it.

The pandemic has been one of the major factors that is highlighting this, in my opinion. Lots of people who rely on shows for work have lost their jobs and a lot of people are suffering, however, there is a core group of people who realistically aren’t struggling in terms of barely making ends meet, there struggle is a little different. For some, the most difficult part of the pandemic is the cancellation of shows, which results in their disappointment in a competitor. They’ve lost the luxury of showing and rather than acknowledging the current world situation, far too many are starting to lash out at regulations intended to protect people from the spread of COVID and the unfairness of cancellations, rather than why said cancellations exist.

Many major shows have been cancelled, with an awful lot of major show parks cancelling entire show series. These cancellations have resulted in a lot of public outrage, with a great deal of people commenting on the unfairness of it all. Most recently, this has happened with Pony Finals, which was cancelled so last minute that people had literally loaded horses and paid for hauling to go there. I’m sure you can imagine the level of upset and outrage that came out of this. I can understand how disappointed and pissed off people would be to have something cancelled so last minute, but at the same time, how hyper privileged do you have to be to plan to trailer distance to go compete with large crowds at a show venue, all while case loads continue to climb for a highly contagious virus? I think it’s irresponsible of all planning committees for major events to not cancel in advance as the case rate sky rockets n their area, but at the same time, parents of the children slated to compete should have been well aware of the current world situation, and we’ve got to wonder why people are even focused on competing right now.

Seeing full grown adults complaining about how unjust it was for their children not to be able to compete after there were COVID 19 cases at said park just doesn’t sit right. There’s people losing loved ones from this illness and it is so incredibly odd to see people making this about a horse show, or not being able to finish their junior career… The worst part is, these same types of people are often the ones who say that there isn’t a need for more accessibility in the horse world. That people who want more access just need to work harder, be taken advantage of in work for lesson programs, or not be a part of the horse world.

How can people feel this hard done by and upset by missing a single show or even an entire show season but not understand what the pain would be like for a talented and passionate rider watching wealthier children get to do the things they can only dream of doing? The children who are able to start preparing to go to, let alone attend shows like Pony Finals are incredibly fortunate no matter how hard they have worked for it and at its core, it’s reliant on them having parents or someone else who can support them financially to get them there. A lot of children aren’t fortunate enough to be born into this type of situation and it’s not realistic to expect an underage individual to be able to work enough hours on their own to not only fund a riding career through lessons, but also expensive shows. So, I suppose my question here is: if you can have sympathy for your upper level riders, for the junior and amateurs competing frequently on the circuit and for people who didn’t reasonably anticipate cancellations due to a global health crisis…. Why can’t you have sympathy for the people who never have even gotten the chance to participate on the circuit due to circumstances that have affected them for much of their life? Why can’t you have sympathy for the kids who will never get closer to horses than through a TV screen but desperately want to? Why don’t you care bout these passionate, horse loving people having access to the things you’ve taken for granted for so long that you think it’s the end of the world to lose them for one season?

I really think it’s time the horse world sits with the disappointment they’ve felt from their show season being disrupted due to COVID19 and consider how there’s people who will never get the chance to show as often as you do in one season in their entire lifetime. It can even be something as small as people’s disappointment to barns closing and their lack of ability to visit horses for weeks and months, something we are all guilty of taking for granted and it’s something that we’ve only had to deal with due to a GLOBAL PANDEMIC, not because of finances, health, family circumstance or some other pressing issue that affects people every day of their life. We need to come to terms with how superficial a lot of people’s disappointment is this year and consider how much worse it can be. It’s okay to be sad about the loss of your show season and I do feel awful for the kids who had this huge build up towards Pony Finals only to have it ripped away. But, it’s also on their parents and trainers to have been more realistic about the world situation instead of ignoring it.

Having the privilege to be so lackadaisical during a time where people are losing family, jobs, getting evicted and being unable to make ends meet and then trying to claim that privilege doesn’t exist in the horse world or that “hard work will get you there”….. It’s just one of the most ridiculous things ever to watch unfold when just weeks ago, there was an influx of articles about white privilege, financial privilege and the lack of access in the horse world and said articles were flooded with comments from middle aged and young people alike claiming they didn’t have privilege, only hard work. That there didn’t need to be more access in the horse world and people needed to stop being so lazy and needed to care enough to make opportunity for themselves. Now, the same types of people are wanting sympathy over quite possibly one of the most privileged dilemmas a horse person can have. We can’t constantly alienate certain classes of horse people through exorbitant prices, biases, blatant racism, transphobia, homophobia etc and then expect them to be sympathetic as they watch horse people pitch a fit over the fact that a health crisis has halted their show career for the season.

So, I suppose this is a lengthy way of saying that if you feel inconvenienced by 2020 throwing a wrench in your show plans, imagine how inconvenient it would be if you couldn’t afford to attend them in the first place. Then, next time, consider people’s feelings when you say there’s no need for more access and it’s just up to hard work. It’s about as baseless and stupid as someone telling you that if you worked harder this year, you could’ve evaded the pandemic and shown anyways. At the end of the day, we are all running our own races, some of us just get head starts along the way and it’s up to us to have some compassion for those who don’t. I’m hoping the inconveniences people have experienced this year will help to make them more empathetic towards others and create more opportunity where they can as well as requesting the same from their favourite show venues. There is no way around the fact that owning horses and showing is a luxury, you’re more often than not losing a lot more money than you make and the only way you can afford to do that is if you have disposable income to blow. This doesn’t mean you’ve not worked hard for said income, but you still have it while other people also work very hard while receiving less for the hours put in.

To those who have lost their show season solely due to the pandemic this year: That sucks but imagine if this pandemic time had extended your whole riding career? How sad would you be if the most recent time you showed would be your last because you simply could not afford to be there anymore? If you love showing, I’m sure it isn’t something you want to think about and I can relate. So, please, before you type up another senseless comment about how unpaid working student positions will pay exorbitant show fees for every motivated rider or that there’s enough diversity here already, try to put yourself in someone else’s shows. Try to consider what it would be like to not have the things you have but to want them desperately. Then, feel some empathy and use your privilege to spread the word and encourage others to use their empathy to make the horse world more accessible. You have nothing to lose but have the ability to change people’s lives and allow horse loving children and adults to have a grasp of the horse world more easily. A little bit of compassion goes a long way and it’s time we all realize how out of touch it is to be complaining about not being able to spend thousands to be judged on our riding skills while people are dying.

The Casual Exploitation of Ambitious Young Riders

Photo by totem photographics

Photo by totem photographics

While being encapsulated in the echo chamber that is the horse world, it is easy to become complacent. We fail to recognize reality outside of the “reality” within the confines of equestrianism. This phenomenon is likely the driving force behind much of the problematic practices and behaviours we justify in the horse world, for example the skewed idea that somehow rules like labour laws are “different” when horses are brought into the equation. Growing up in this atmosphere where there is a lot of pressure to conform with tradition; what is viewed to be normal in THIS world helps indoctrinate riders into believing that everything we see happening here is acceptable. It teaches us to refrain from questioning practices based on the belief “everyone does it” or “that’s just the way it is”. There is a whole rabbit hole of topics that are covered up in this matter but today’s focus is going to be specifically on how blatantly and commonly businesses in the horse world violate basic labour laws. They do so publicly and without remorse, often being applauded for their generosity in offering young, up and coming riders such great opportunities.

These basic lapses in respectable treatment to employees are even (or, arguably, more so) seen in the barns and business practices of upper level riders, well respected trainers with accomplishments miles long. Guilty of not providing their employees with fair wages, even on the bare minimum basis. The name attached to a person’s riding prowess is given far too much value in our niche, the horse world, to the point where people will work ridiculous hours while essentially receiving pennies in compensation (even if we take into consideration “experience” based compensation in the form of lessons), and the worst part is that they get away with it all of the time. In fact, you’re generally more of an outlier when you dare to question whether or not fair compensation exists across the ranks in the horse world. You’ll be called lazy, ungrateful, spoiled, not “driven” enough, all for daring to ask for fair compensation for work done. These tactics serve the purpose of dissuading people from questioning the status quo, to make them feel stupid for saying “Hold up, wait a second…. is this fair?”

Before we get into the train wreck that is people’s experiences of major labor violations, blatant abuse and dangerous circumstance whilst working in the horse world, let me first talk about elitism in the horse world and how readily people claim it doesn’t truly exist. This plays a role in how expertly people manage to exploit ambitious young riders. First and foremost, the horse world that is the Hunter/Jumper, Dressage or Eventing disciplines in North America, is absurdly expensive. Attending even a single A-rated show is a huge luxury here because we are talking a week of competition that can cost thousands. This cost does not even factor in the lease, owning, care and equipment costs of horses. They merely refer to the expenses of a single competition. On top of competition costs, we also have board and care of the horse, lessons, tack and equipment, show clothes and more. This all amasses to well above the limit the average person can often reasonably manage to put into a luxury sport. Unlike many other sports, the horse world also lacks the support to help average to lower income riders attend competitions. There is little in the way of scholarships, cost breaks and bursary funds for riders with competitive dreams while outfitted in breeches with shallow pockets. Despite these realities, the common ideology expressed by more privileged people on the circuit is: “If you work hard enough, you can make it happen.” This is inherently classist and condescending because it implies that if you have not or do not eventually achieve your riding goals, you simply haven’t worked hard enough. It also implies that everyone who has gotten somewhere on the show circuit and made something of themselves has done so with the exact same obstacles when in reality, many of them, come from a place of immense privilege.

5 year old me enjoying the privilege of showing, paid for by my  parents.

5 year old me enjoying the privilege of showing, paid for by my parents.

Let me break down privilege. It does not mean you’re lazy, untalented or haven’t worked hard for where you’ve gotten in riding. It can mean your parents have entirely or even partially paid for your horse shows. It can be knowing you have the comfort of a trust fund or university fund to alleviate stresses about affording things like post secondary education, your first house, a car or other big ticket items. It can be working your butt off for your horsey expenses but having someone cover off your gas, car insurance, rent, food and so on and so forth. It can be you covering off your living expenses AND riding expenses now but having had your introduction to horses as a child covered by parents. There are many levels of privilege and if you’re a participant in the horse world, you’re essentially guaranteed to be privileged in SOME way.

Like I said, there are varying levels of privilege, so implying that someone only needs to work hard to overcome the obstacles in front of them is negating how difficult said obstacles may be. To some, they may be reasonable feats equivalent to climbing a steep hill, crossing a quiet river or running a race that tests your athleticism but doesn’t push you to your max. To others, it may be scaling a cliff side or trying to swim across a raging current that threatens to pull you under. All struggle is not equal. The opportunities of hard work that landed you where you are aren’t necessarily going to apply to everyone, which is why ACCESSIBILITY is the most important factor of this so called “hard work” for success and to be frank, accessibility in the horse world is a bit of a fallacy right now. It isn’t accessible for the average person or anywhere close to it, and unless something changes cost-wise in competitions and compensation-wise in work positions, it never will be. So, at the bare minimum, cool it with the virtue signalling “we want diversity” BS if you’re going to be one of the people doing Olympic level gymnastics to try to silence anyone from discussing the cost and how much of a factor it is in the lack of diversity.

Anyways, before I go into the horrors of working student positions and how inherently problematic they are, let’s quickly break down the actual cost of showing. I just went to two days- yes only two days- of the week long schooling event at Thunderbird Show Park called the Rendezvous. I did not even stable at the property; I just hauled in, did my classes and left. With the exhibitor fee, paramedic fee, jumper ring nomination and lastly, the haul in fee of $125 for the week, I paid $220 before ever setting foot in the arena. After my 6 classes, the total for a schooling week that did not give ribbons or announce placings was $416.50. This was a “cheap” event at this show park; for their rated shows you’re easily looking at triple that amount or more for the week and that’s without factoring in trainer or hauling costs along with food, possible accommodations and more. I recently totaled only the necessary fees each rider must pay, with the assumption of one rider per horse, and came out to revenue of over one million dollars for a single week at Thunderbird Show Park. That is without factoring in total class prices, horses with two riders or any contributions by sponsors to lessen the total running costs. That is a low estimate of what these shows bring in, for ONE week, when on a regular season they’re running several weeks of shows year long. I’m telling you right now, unless the rider is sponsored, it is simply impossible for a family working on an average middle class income to fund $1,200+ weeks of showing several times a year, or even once a year, on top of all of the other costs that are necessary to be a part of the horse world outside of showing. As of 2019, the average income in Canada was around $52,600 a year. Please tell me, how on the average income, a family could fund their child’s entire show season when it would likely span over $10,000 if they were to participate at the extent of many riders who proclaim that all it takes is “hard work” to get to where they are? How can a family afford to put a fifth of their total income to a luxury for ONE child on top of all other living expenses? Answer: they can’t. Don’t get me wrong, I love Thunderbird: their staff is phenomenal and the facilities are beautiful, but to be honest, I don’t belong there. I’m an outsider in a world of privilege, even as someone who does well financially, especially for my age, and has privilege myself. I’ve never felt more poor or less worthy of respect than I do attending an A show with my 2005 Chevy Silverado with body damage and my cheap trailer.

My receipt from the Thunderbird Rendezvous schooling week, an unrated week of classes without ribbons or placings uploaded to showgrounds live.

My receipt from the Thunderbird Rendezvous schooling week, an unrated week of classes without ribbons or placings uploaded to showgrounds live.

The perceived solution to all of these woes for many is a working student position. Framed as an incredible, amazing opportunity that will help you achieve success in the horse world, set you up for big opportunities and fulfill your dreams of becoming a professional trainer or a big rider on the circuit. This is one of the most recommended options for less financially fortunate riders and the idea behind “hard work” getting someone anywhere they desire to be. But what is the reality of the vast majority of these positions, how hard is it to find one that actually provides the opportunities it claims to?

I recently conducted a survey of at least 70 working students. While this obviously cannot be held to the same validity as some sort of scholarly source or accredited study, let’s be real here, no one cares enough about their working students to conduct an accredited study or investigation into their well-being so unless you want to fund that, let’s all agree to cut the holier than thou “this can’t be legitimate” BS unless one of y’all wants to pay for me to do that. With that said, I feel I’ve inquired personally about enough working student positions, have friends who have worked in said positions, and have also seen the publicly posted remuneration rates for both working student and barn positions alike to see that the horse world believes that local labour laws apply to everyone except for them. Anyways, the responses I received to my survey are rather appalling.

The most commonly cited weekly hours requested of a working student were SEVENTY hours in my survey. The mean average still fell over the regular 40 hour work week, around 55 hours averaged the expected work day for these free labourers. While some were compensated fairly or at least slightly closer to what would be fair for their location, the vast majority of said workers were lured in with false promises about what they would receive in return for their work as well as being misled about the extent of the work they would be doing. For most, they were promised free training and lessons in exchange for work. Many were told they would work 5-6 day work weeks and ended up working everyday without days off, despite the promise of having days off. The vast majority of respondents claimed that they received a fraction of the lessons they were promised. Most were told they would receive at least one lesson weekly, and even if you factor in the rates of Olympic level riders- even charging $300 per lesson- this still doesn’t equate to fair compensation for a 40 hour + work week even if they did stick by their initial promises in terms of remuneration. Some students were also promised reduced show fees which either never happened or at least not on the consistent basis promised. Most were told that in working at these big barns, they would have the opportunity to sit in on lessons and clinics to soak up more knowledge, but their work expectations conflicted with these times, rendering them unable to sit and watch without being yelled at for doing so. In the survey, there is a clear trend of people saying that paying clients took precedence over their lessons, even though they were offering more free hours and arguably more “compensation” for their lessons in return.

One of the most troubling revelations I’ve had since surveying these riders is seeing how many of them were conned out of the promised compensation, weeks or months after arriving. To start with, much of the offered remuneration for these work positions was sorely lacking, even without the trainers offering said positions going back on what they promised to pay. More than half of survey respondents indicated that they were told one thing only to have it change once they actually started work. Some were robbed of the promised compensation entirely, others only receiving a handful of lessons in a lengthy stay as a worker at their farms, despite being promised daily, several times weekly, or weekly lessons.

For those who accepted live-in working positions, the vast majority did not receive fair compensation even when factoring in their rental costs. Out of all of the survey respondents, only a couple stated they felt the living conditions were fair and reasonable for the amount of work they were asked to do. Only a couple admitted to being allowed breaks and being encouraged to keep their physical and mental health in mind and not be overworked. The rest indicated the living positions were often shared living, which further reduces the actual “cost” of what the living situation they’re “working off” would be.

Work conditions were terrible. For example, the barn owner would pay her main hand only in cash and $100~ a week for over 60 hours of work a week. I was the only other worker, who actually had a deal for 20 hours a week part time. There were so much responsibilities that I had to do outside my agreed schedule that made me work 40 hours a week, but I was only compensated for the 20. I took a total of 2 lessons in 3 months.



She was a Grand Prix jumper and seemed to have a good reputation in the community if you made over a million. For anyone under her tax bracket, she wouldn’t talk to you. I had to be there at 5 am every day and again was treated like a slave, only this time in that I was told demeaning things if I did something slightly wrong, that I was too fat for this job (I was 5’9” and a size 6), and told I wasted money going to college because I came from a working class family and only the rich should go to college. I asked off 3 days in October (well before October) and was told that wouldn’t be possible. I gave her my two weeks notice but she kicked me off the property immediately because she “didn’t trust me”. The hours were fluid, you worked 6 days a week plus whenever she decided to tell you to come do night checks.

The biggest red flag from the respondents is the fact that the vast majority of them put in overtime hours without receiving overtime compensation, which is a requirement in the vast majority of areas in terms of labour laws. All of the people who participated in the survey were from Canada or the US, meaning that the labour laws in these areas are pretty standard and under no circumstances would it pass as being fair for someone to be compensated less than half of minimum wage for the work put in. It is commonplace in most areas to receive time and a half or double time once you’ve worked over 40 hours, which pretty much doesn’t exist in the horse world. Finding fair compensation in a job that actually respects local labour laws is like finding a needle in a haystack.

The worst part of all of this is that these types of barns and trainers make their living on the backs of young, ambitious riders who simply want more of a chance in the horse world without having the funds to buy or lease nice horses and show on the circuit the entire year. These riders have big dreams and shallow pockets and want nothing more than just a chance, and far too many trainers and barns exploit their desire to move up the ranks of the horse show world and become someone on the circuit. In fact, I would wager that these trainers and barns specifically seek out these types and the whole “if you work hard enough, opportunities will arise!” mindset is a manipulation tactic to fool these people into forgetting about what the labour regulations in their area construe as fair compensation. These riders are literally groomed for mistreatment by constantly being told that their lack of effort or “hard work” is the reason behind their lack of growth or success as a rider, instead of the absolutely devastatingly unrealistic costs and how deep pockets can help people quite easily navigate their way into the horse world, even at the highest levels.

Another alarming trend in the survey I put out was how many people were asked to participate in dangerous tasks for their experience level, or dangerous tasks in general, without any healthcare or injury insurance should they be injured from said task. They were also asked to do these things while being compensated virtually nothing. Many young riders were brought into programs that promised to teach them how to be better riders and handlers but essentially “thrown to the wolves” in terms of the types of horses they were asked to deal with. These riders show up lacking experience but are then asked to handle young, high strung and dangerous horses with inadequate training and preparation to do so. Some were even forced to be involved in veterinary procedures well above their pay grade and experience level and had to participate or risk being fired. Many also mentioned having to ride horses who were known to be difficult and dangerous while their employers got to ride the safer, more predictable ones. They were given the bottom of the barrel, dangerous jobs to get these horses going under saddle or on the ground fairly safety and THEN and only then, would the trainer who was supposed to be helping them along, get on the horse.

While a fair amount of the respondents did admit they didn’t feel endangered, the vast majority at minimum stated that they were overworked and lacked sleep, and these factors likely made their jobs more dangerous even if they weren’t being overfaced in terms of the tasks being asked. This meant that while the jobs themselves weren’t too much to ask for their experience level, the hours demanded were entirely unrealistic for any person, let alone someone working for free or extremely cheap just for the experience. The vast majority of riders who participated in this survey also referenced extremely high employee turnaround rates, something I’ve also noticed personally at a lot of big boarding and training operations. They’re always looking for new help and have a hard time hanging onto employees long term. This is often (but not always) an indicator of poor treatment to employees as businesses who appreciate and fairly compensate employees tend to hang onto them and hold loyalty.

Every single participant in the survey was under 25 years old with the majority being 18 or under. This rather aptly exemplifies the target age demographic for the types of trainers who exploit their students. They want the young, naive and ambitious. They want to utilize people’s desire to become better riders on a dime to their own benefit= free work. These barns want to operate with extremely low labour costs to allow them more of a revenue gain, and they clearly know where to find the types of people that will continue to take these jobs again and again. The high turnaround rate for employees doesn’t even seem to matter because there will always be some new fresh face who desperately wants to become like the many upper level riders they idolize and will do anything to achieve it. There will always be someone who will be easily fooled into accepting an abusive work position because the entire horse world works off this premise to a large extent. Like I said, riders are groomed to accept mistreatment. We perpetuate it by equating hard work with success whilst completely ignoring how even outside of the horse world, often times the hardest workers are not compensated to the extent of those on top who often do less hourly work or at minimum, less physically taxing work. We’ve created a world where people are shamed for their lack of success and presumed to be lazy, all while most people refuse to acknowledge how financially exclusive the horse world is.

I’m sure many will try to argue that operating boarding and training facilities is expensive and that trainers can’t afford to pay more, offer more, yadda yadda. My answer to those of you who think that is this: If a facility cannot pay their employees a fair wage or offer fair compensation in terms of training, lessons etc in return, then their business model is shit. If you cannot fairly compensate your employees because you cannot afford to do so, your business is a failure. If you cannot provide the minimum livable wage or services that equate to such in value, then you cannot afford your business. It is not other people’s job to be willfully exploited so you can continue to run a business that exists due to you labour code violations. Become a better business person or don’t be a business person. No one deserves to continue to run a business if it succeeds on the backs of poorly treated and under compensated employees. People shouldn’t have to accept mistreatment so that you can pocket a heftier check, and anyone who is okay with this needs to take a deep look at their own morals and ethics.

The saddest part about all of this is that these unfair working positions that overwork their employees suck the love of horses out of what were once ambitious, passionate riders. There is an extremely high burnout rate and for as many people who may achieve success from these working positions, there are so many more who leave the horse world entirely and are demoralized because of it.. For every trainer who offers a fair return when it comes to the work they ask of their employees, there are many more who have no qualms about taking whatever they can get and then replacing their employees when the work becomes too much for them. So, at the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter if these positions work for “some” people or if “some” trainers and barns are kind and fair to their students. It needs to be more than some. As it stands, it is way too accepted for trainers to take advantage of the young and naive and use their free labour as a means of earning more money themselves without having to offer much of their time for “free” in return for said work. It is way too common to see patronizing middle-aged and successful equestrians talking about how lazy and complainy the youth is and imply that if they only worked harder, their wildest dreams would remarkably come to fruition. Even younger generations (generally, the more financially fortunate demographic) will parrot the idea that all you need is hard work for success, all while failing to acknowledge where they may have had a head start.

The racing industry, in contrast to show jumping, gave me paid opportunity go grow as a rider and learn the industry.

The racing industry, in contrast to show jumping, gave me paid opportunity go grow as a rider and learn the industry.

The fact of the matter is that there is a deep seated, insidious toxicity in the horse world that will never be cured if we don’t start to acknowledge the existence of it and reframe our thinking and discussion. Everywhere in the world, hard work is often not compensated fairly. If becoming successful was as easy as working hard and putting your mind to it, there would be a lot more people in the income bracket to readily access university. There are an awful lot of extremely driven and passionate people who never get a chance to properly demonstrate the extent of their work because they don’t have the finances to climb the rungs of the ladder that would allow them to really show what they can do. Telling them that the only reason they’ve not achieved their goals is because they’re just not working hard enough is just a manipulative way of trying to keep the spirits of the less fortunate down and put all blame onto them so they don’t question the status quo and how much of a deterrent lack of finances are in a number of industries, especially the horse world.

To the passionate young riders who lack the finances to be a part of the horse world in the way they want: Do not be afraid to demand fair compensation for your worth. You do not need to sell your soul to a job that will suck the life out of you, demand far too many hours and offer little in return. If these positions were the key into the horse world that people claim them to be, we wouldn’t be seeing predominately wealthy people at the top levels. While there are riders from less fortunate backgrounds who have “made it”, the fact of the matter is that they are few and far between in North America. If these positions were the huge opportunity everyone claims them to be, there wouldn’t be such a discrepancy in terms of privilege at horse shows. We would see more diversity resulting from these so called “amazing” opportunities. But, most of these positions are not what they claim to be and the trainers who offer these opportunities in the right way are not as common as they need to be in order to increase the level of access in the horse world. Expect fair pay and fair treatment. Do not be afraid to speak out on the problems in the horse world and talk over the out of touch people, even if they are older than you. Age doesn’t always bring wisdom, especially if someone has grown up privileged and been so out of touch that they don’t even know where to start with educating themselves on the reality of things. Unfortunately, it is true that ignorance is bliss and way too many people do not want to let go of said bliss and come to terms with reality because reality is uncomfortable.

Lastly, to the trainers who really do offer great opportunities and fair compensation: We appreciate you! You are offering something very special to some very deserving people and you are changing lives. While it may not be as lucrative as exploiting students like many others do, you’re making a difference in a way that matters so much more than money. To any ambitious riders hoping to land under a trainer who will offer you a fair opportunity, consider putting less weight on the prestige of a big name. Big name trainers can use their names to add weight to what they offer, thereby depriving people further of fair compensation because they’re doing you a solid of letting you work for them. In fact, some of these trainers charge exorbitant daily boarding fees to have you live in cheap, group housing while you are literally PAYING to work for them. Now, in some cases, maybe these fees are fair, but it is up to you to decide. Look up your local labour laws: after factoring in your room and board costs, what are you really getting in return? Even if you’re working for a prestigious name, you still deserve the bare minimum of fair compensation.

What I’m saying is this: there are an awful lot of extremely knowledgeable, kind trainers who will give you opportunities but they’re often lesser known. They don’t have the mile long show records or Olympic gold medals, but they’ll offer you way more in terms of learning and knowledge. I learned how to start horses under saddle when I was taken under the wing of a woman who ran the boarding operation I boarded at for several years. She set her board costs so cheap, she couldn’t have made anything and she also gave me many many hours of free riding and advice along with free trailering to shows and many more opportunities. She operated (and still does) a smaller, not-fancy boarding barn that mainly served the purpose of helping to provide a soft landing to horses who needed it and finding them new, safe homes to go to. The facilities were simple but were all about the health and wellbeing of the horses rather than trying to put on a show for riders and boarders coming in. I’m not the only one she’s offered such opportunities to; she does so for many, offering cheap board and leases and most of all, the support and expertise to help riders to grow. She did not show on the circuit where my interests lay and her desires as a rider were more applicable to enjoying the horses rather than having her name in the limelight as a big rider on the circuit, but she taught me more than any other working student position could have at the time, especially for the time she expected me to put in (which was on my terms). She never made me feel stupid, she treated me as an equal and while she is a blunt and honest person, she was never unkind to me. I think many local riders can say the same about Tara Nicholson of Hayburner Haven because she has been a light in the lives of many less fortunate riders who just needed a chance and a role model to give them one.

Riders, I implore you to demand more. We need to start putting on the pressure for fair treatment of employees and exposing how often basic labour regulations are entirely disregarded in our industry. We cannot keep letting people get away with this just because they claim to offer a good opportunity or have a big name in the industry. Everyone needs to be held accountable, or we will never find change. There are zero good reasons why fair compensation should be deprived to the extent it is. There are zero good reasons to not care about diversifying and increasing accessibility. There are far too many exceptionally talented riders with little ability to showcase said talent due to the lack of money to do so and the worst part is, showing and show records are so valued in this world that you’re taken less seriously if you don’t have one, or lack a lengthy one. It’s stupid because all of our development as riders occurs outside of the show ring. Shows mainly provide a means of tracking your progress and letting other people see it. There are a lot of riders out there who could ride circles around the big names we see in the spotlight on the circuit but never get the opportunity to do so and are completely unknown, all because they don’t have the deep pockets to attend these shows.

Diversifying will allow these people access. It will also create more range in the horse breeds we see competing considering many of these less financially fortunate riders have to be crafty and take on the cheap “throwaway” types of horses that most people with money wouldn’t dare take the risk on since they can afford a more “sure” thing. It will then help to increase the desirability of these horses by showing what they can do, instead of the financially fortunate constantly discounting the abilities of Thoroughbreds, Quarter Horses, rescue horses, grade horses and so on and so forth, all because they don’t care to try to produce them themselves and haven’t seen them meet success due to who they surround themselves with. By increasing the representation of these types of horses and riders on the circuit, we will help keep passionate riders in the sport by showing them that they actually belong here and can reasonably achieve their goals instead of them constantly being disheartened by seeing that “making it” as a competitive rider is a pipe dream unless you have money and that if you don’t have that “fancy” horse, people will constantly remind you about how your horse is the exception or how it will “never make it” to your intended goals.

I’ve been riding for the last 20 years and many of the opportunities I have been offered by generous people would have never been there if my family couldn’t have afforded to get me lessons as a child to the extent that they did. I’ve been on both sides of the equation, one side being the kid with a wealthy family and the other being a hard working adolescent with a family who could no longer support my participation in the horse world. I can tell you from experience that participating at shows when my parents could easily afford it was as easy as blinking. It just happened. I didn’t have to work hard for it outside of trying in lessons and being passionate, something the vast majority of serious riders have regardless of money. I had even more energy to be present in lessons when they were paid for because they just happened, even if I wasn’t working.

On the flip side, when my family lost all of our money after it was embezzled, I started working at barns prior to being a legal age to work at a legitimate job in my area. As soon as I was old enough to get a real job, I did. I stopped riding as much because between work and trying to be a normal teenager, it was exceptionally draining. I grew sour seeing my friends achieving the things I used to be able to do with ease whereas even with working hard and saving, I couldn’t afford to attend the same shows as them. I gave up what had been a lifelong dream of becoming a horse trainer, for several years, all because of finances. What was the point? I thought. It was far too much risk with little reward, especially since I knew I’d be having to fund my entire university education. If my goals as a trainer flopped, I’d be screwed with no fall back option. My passion for becoming a trainer was reignited when someone just gave me a chance, helped me learn, and offered me opportunities that got my foot in the door of the racing world by giving me my first OTTB. From there, my passion snowballed and I started looking for every loophole I could to try and land myself in success. Many of these opportunities, though, were reliant on my ability to ride that was built over many years of parents funding my lessons. My show horse that I ride now never could have existed without said experience because he was so damaged and difficult, coming from an abusive background and being barely halter broke when I got him. Even with my mom having horse experience and me having the experience I did at the time, producing him was extremely challenging. It definitely went slower than it would have if I’d had more access at that point and was able to take more lessons with good trainers and learn more. Now, I’m sure that I could have produced him faster than I did, but it’s taken 6 years of patience and hard work to get him to the point of going around .90m rounds clear.

One of Milo’s many showstopping (pun intended) refusals

One of Milo’s many showstopping (pun intended) refusals

Many viewed this as a fault of my training and many have stated this and while it is in part true, I’d say it’s mostly a fault of the system considering my talent is valued based on how often or how high I show, without factoring in the types of horses I train and ride and how much work they entail. The entire mindset of the horse world completely discredits and discourages people like me and especially people who have even more obstacles than I have. Acknowledging that other people have more obstacles to overcome than you is not a criticism on the work you’ve put in; it is simply an acknowledgement you’ve had help. Help that has solved problems that you’ve never had to consider because of the privilege of said help. You can work hard and be talented all while still acknowledging that having support with your show fees, tuition, car payments, living, tack purchases etc gives you an ease of living that wouldn’t be there if you were having to find ways to cover this entirely on your own. Admit where you’re fortunate, acknowledge the obstacles others have to overcome that you don’t and please, just be understanding. We can all make the horse world a kinder, more accessible place if we just learn to listen, hold people accountable and remember that it isn’t a criticism of our own lives to point out how we’ve only come across certain opportunities and successes due to pure privilege and circumstance.

I want more diversity. I want to see more people like myself, who work full time, haul ass to the show and make it just in time for their classes. People who can’t afford living accommodations, stabling, living off of the show venue food and taking weeks off to attend shows. I want to see more people who understand what it’s like to try to navigate the horse world on a budget and who know what it feels like to be one of the odd people out on the circuit. I want more people to acknowledge the out of touch nature of the horse world and how it is wrought with privilege and how that lack of realization of said privilege is what enables the exploitation of those who lack many of the same privileges. It’s time for us to open our eyes and start openly talking about all of the problems in our world in an attempt to fix them. It’s time for all of us to stop being so selfish and to realize that there are plenty of riders who would cut off a limb to be in our shoes and that they’re not whiny or lazy for being disappointed or discouraged by how hard or impossible it is to try to participate in the horse world. It’s time for us to quit with the self absorbed nature and become empathetic towards others instead of trying to label them as lazy or ungrateful for being sad about having to forego on what may be lifelong dreams simply because they’re a middle class or lower rider.

It is time for us to acknowledge the immense amount of privilege in the horse world and use our access to said privilege to offer more incentives to those who lack the same access. We have the money and the means to make things more accessible. If people can afford 6 figure horses and tens of thousands of dollars in show fees each year, they sure as shit can afford to contribute to bursaries, sponsorships, scholarships and more. The big names or icons of our industry could consider doing sponsorships or at least advocating for the idea of them being offered to people not already able to actively show on the circuit. Equestrian companies can afford to sponsor lesser known riders and offer incentive programs to get talented riders into the show ring, thereby allowing them to “prove” themselves. Show venues can definitely afford, especially by way of benefactors or sponsors, to offer incentives for riders below certain income brackets or offer yearly scholarships like free show vouchers. It’ll get more riders into their arenas, more interest and thereby more entries. They can even guarantee the opportunities they offer are only used at their showgrounds, all by giving away things like a simple piece of paper that allows a lucky person a reduction, or complete write off, of their show fees. Even one show a year would make a difference to one rider, but I’m sure we can do better than that. There is enough money and privilege in this world to go around and make things more accessible, we just have to bloody care enough to push for it and offer it.







The Sliding Scale That Is Abuse

Photo by matthew Elder

Photo by matthew Elder


People who choose to work with animals generally do so from a raw passion that is the initial catalyst for their interest. Horse people are no different. Many of us started out working with horses after an innocent enthrallment with the animals, often finding ourselves in awe of their beauty and with a magnetic desire to get close to them, learn about them and soak up the positive energy that is their gentleness. Generally speaking, the sheer love for the animal is what appeals most to those who end up dedicating their lives to working and training animals, an industry that is often unforgiving, low paying and difficult to make a living in. You have to love the work to dare follow such an uncertain career path.

So, why do some horse people stray down the path of corruption and cognitive dissonance that allows them to participate in what may be blatant, or veiled, abuse and neglect of animals? How does someone go from the awestruck child or adult to someone who exploits their horses for personal gain without any regard for the specific needs of the flight animal? Where do we go wrong?

When people outside the horse world think of horse abuse, more often than not, the first industry that comes to mind is the racing industry. This is likely much to the relief of equine enthusiasts who participate in show horse disciplines. It is easier to have industries other than your own be the ones under fire for abuse. It allows for a separation from mistreatment and a blaming of others, all while patting yourself on the back for not participating in what you may perceive as systemic abuse. But, to be frank, it is a cop out.

As someone who participates in both the show horse world and horse racing world as a professional, an employee and a competitor, few things frustrate me more than watching my fellow show world equestrians jump on the bandwagon of attacking problems within the racing world and vilifying all participants in it based only on what they have heard or seen in the media. This judgment and the gloating about their own riding and care of their horses like they’re somehow immune to the very same demons of corruption that plague aspects of the racing world is hypocritical. I do not understand how people who claim to love their horses and want the best for them can be so overtly tone deaf.

The fact of the matter is that the greatest change comes from within. You cannot expect naive people with limited equine knowledge and no awareness of how specific horse industries function to be the ones with the best ideas on how to fix them or the ability to determine if they’re unfixable and must be banned. This means that, as the participant, you are responsible for recognizing the need for change and inciting necessary reform. If you lack the self reflection skills to be able to be critical of your own equestrian discipline of choice, you simply have no business judging others. It is far too easy to become comfortable contributing to the “not in my backyard” mindset: picking apart issues in other equestrian sports, while brushing under the rug our own problems just because it is viewed to be worse elsewhere. This is evident in the horse world’s witch hunt on the racing industry and tacit acceptance of abuses in other highly visible disciplines.

We are all responsible as participants to not only recognize the needed areas of change in our disciplines, but to advocate for them. Part of advocacy is holding people who do wrong accountable, something the horse world is especially bad at. I have borne witness to people defending pedophilic equestrian trainers, racism and other forms of discrimination so it really is no surprise that people are willing to readily defend the abuse and neglect that their idols are guilty of by using the “if you’ve not competed at this level, you can’t talk” excuse. This is the favoured justification of show horse people, and the irony in it is so thick that I would need a chainsaw to cut through it.

You see, apparently, as a competitor, rider, trainer, and educated observer, you are not qualified to judge whether or not an upper level professional’s conduct is justified unless you have competed at the same level as them. The people who perpetuate this claim are probably Olympic level mental gymnasts, so excuse me for judging their logic since I’ve not gone to the mental Olympics. But… in what world does it make even the slightest sense to say that someone needs to jump 1.60m to come to the conclusion that perhaps flight animals don’t enjoy bit set ups engineered to cause pain if they don’t easily comply, electrified spurs, being whipped for refusals and so on?? How would jumping a substantially sized course make someone even the slightest bit more educated on equine behaviour and anatomy? It wouldn’t. All riders are “guilty” of entrusting care of their upper level mounts to veterinarians and farriers, most of which have not competed at the same levels as their clients, yet we trust them to do their job because we know they’re educated… just as we should trust modern day science and the advice of professional behaviourists. In the vast majority of cases, to be critical of rider conduct, all you really need is some equine science knowledge and some empathy. That’s really it, but unfortunately it requires people to escape the fog of their cognitive dissonance, which they don’t want to do.

The other irony is that these very people believe they are qualified to judge racing, the favoured scapegoat when it comes to proclaiming horse abuse and where to start for reform. They ignore their own lack of experience working with Thoroughbreds on the racetrack and deny the inherent biases present in anti racing information from sources like PETA and Horse Racing Kills. In fact, if they dislike racing, they are keen to use whatever source backs their preexisting notions, regardless of the validity of said source. On the flip side, when PETA and other organizations come for sports like show jumping, as seen just last summer at an FEI event, people are furious. They make fun of the protesters, claim there’s nothing to be protesting, complain about them endangering the animals by entering the arena to protest (which is fair) and all in all, make it out to be utterly ridiculous for people to dare have a problem with their sport. It is obtuse thinking.

I bring up racing because of how commonly vilified it is. This isn’t to say racing is without need for reform- there quite are few things in the world that are entirely without need for reform, let alone things pertaining to animals and their care. However, racing is no more guilty of abuse or corruption than any other equine discipline and like any other equine discipline, it all boils down to the humans in question. How do they handle their specific horses? How do the humans in charge of setting regulations handle any complaints and enforce those regulations? The sports themselves aren’t corrupt; it is the people who bring the corruption that touches every discipline in the horse world, both competitive and non-competitive. It lurks insidiously within lesson barns, pleasure riding homes and trail riding businesses. The competition aspect of horses isn’t what turns people bad. The ability to make money off horses isn’t the sole factor that breeds mistreatment and corruption; it just provides more impetus to rush things and take shortcuts that may be harmful to the horse. We see the very same issues within companion animals and pleasure riding horses too, however they usually stem from complete ignorance rather than a calculated effort to get ahead quicker.

Abuse isn’t just horses being over trained to the point of breakdown. It isn’t just horses being beaten to a pulp with a whip. Neglect isn’t just horses being starved half to death, living in dirty conditions and without proper nutrition. These are just some more extreme examples- the ones that make the news. Abuse can take the form of lesson barns running on smaller strings, with horses ridden in multiple lessons a day in ill fitting saddles with riders with hard, uneducated hands. It can be lesson ponies having to stand tacked all day as they await their next rider or participating in lessons through lameness issues and other varying degrees of soreness. It’s lesson barns pawning off their decrepit, lame lesson horses onto others (more likely than not, kill buyers or auctions) when they’re no longer able to pack children around anymore and earn their keep. It can be the competitive show rider who “loves” their horse doing whatever procedures they can to mask the pain from a chronic, degenerative soundness issue so they can continue to move up the levels at the expense of their horse. It can be the drugging of a horse before a show so they’re just that little bit quieter for the hunter ring. It can be the tacit but unspoken knowledge that we will be judged more favourably with the dull, perfectly quiet horse that only chemical intervention provides. Or the lunging our mounts to the point of exhaustion or depriving them of water so they’re lethargic and quiet for little Sally Sue in the lead line class. Abuse can and does take many different, more silent, more accepted forms, but just because no one is beaten, bruised or dying doesn’t change the fact that it is abuse nonetheless.

Neglect, on the other hand, is less noticeable when it isn’t the overtly terrible ‘emaciated and covered in sores’ type of neglect. Neglect is having horses live in years and years of complete isolation of others. It’s people denying the fact that our equine partners are grazing herd animals who require a certain amount of socialization. It’s the viewing of horse to horse contact as an optional part of horse ownership. Neglect is the keeping of horses stalled 24/7 for years on end. The saying they just “don’t like” turnout when they’re unable to quickly and calmly adapt from years of dark isolation to being thrown out in a paddock that would feel like miles of open air, loud with other horses around them. It’s the measured hay feedings, hours in the dark without any food or stimulation, acid chewing away at the lining of the a grazing animal’s stomach when there’s no forage to take its place. Neglect is the ignorance of people opting for harsher and harsher bits and equipment, while failing to realize that much of the reason these types of devices work is because they force the horse, using increasing amounts of pain and pressure, to submit. Neglect is the lack of understanding of equine behaviour and how quickly, commonly and easily people downplay the significance of how these animals are wired.

Abuse and neglect are on a sliding scale of severity and while some forms of minor abuses or neglect can go largely unnoticed, at the scale we are allowing it to occur in the horse industry, it is problematic. The public pressure on the racing industry has forced it to put forth regulations and sanctions with the intention of protecting the horses. They have an injury database that uses statistics to determine the most common footings, ages, genders and other factors when it comes to breakdowns. This allows them a wealth of information to invoke change for the better safety of horses. Racehorses are also far more commonly drug tested (by FAR) than show horses, even at the less prestigious levels of racing. They are examined more by vets, due to pre-race vet exams being mandated. They are also much less likely to be victims of being bullied by equipment and the types of insane bitting set ups you see in the show jumping world in specific, since there is more of an emphasis on just learning how to ride a strong horse. Even a cursory look at the majority of horses at any track will reveal that a snaffle type bit is the most common bit of choice. Sure, you occasionally see interesting gadgets and bit choices but in a sea of over 350 horses, I can count on one hand the number of horses who go in harsher bitting options utilizing curb pressure and/or leverage. The same cannot he said about the show jumping ring.

Where are the better drugging regulations, equipment regulations and welfare regulations on other disciplines? Everything that does go wrong and is caught publicly in the show world, which is probably about 1% of what actually happens, tends to get buried and never make it to mainstream media in the first place. People all think they’re innocent and somehow separate from being under fire by organizations like PETA, but the real truth is that they’re just lucky to not participate in such a public, sensationalized industry and to be able to hide their dirty laundry behind the confines of their private schooling stables rather than public tracks that welcome outsiders. Even with shows, the attitudes in the horse show world generally discourage the attendance of outsiders due to how beginners and non-horse people alike are treated with condescension and made to feel stupid. There is less of an incentive to go to bear witness to the show world because you won’t know what’s going on, people are typically less friendly and less likely to help you out unless they know you or you’re paying them.

Racing caters to outsiders because spectators are the one placing bets. The industry makes it easy to learn about the sport and be a part of it, thereby welcoming newcomers and driving interest. More of an audience means more people taking videos, more people posting photos, sharing news stories, hearing about the the goings on. The sheer number of participants- equine and otherwise- in the racing also inflates the amount of news stories we hear about it. The show industry is just a ghost of what the racing industry is on a worldwide scale. The number of tracks running on a weekly basis means there are simply more numbers to pull news stories from and to blow up and sensationalize, which is unfortunate because it takes the heat off other parts of the horse world that honestly need to be equally exposed, if not more, because we are in need of the public pressure to put forth new rules and guidelines that should have been discussed long ago.

Public pressure would also mean more people demanding justice when the big names in the show industry are caught setting poor examples of horsemanship. If we had instances of riders in the racing world forcing horses to work past the point of exhaustion as we’ve seen with big names like Andy Kocher, we can guarantee racing would get more views and more backlash regardless of the severity or parallels drawn to similar instances outside of racing. But, the general public never hears about it, and so these individuals get away with their shady practices time and time again. The echo chamber of our insular show horse world keeps on telling them how their conduct and treatment is okay and that others who disagree just don’t understand because they’ve “not competed at that level.”

Horse welfare laws also suck. Why are we allowing boarding barns to operate when they have way more horses than they do turnout or pastures? Why are we allowing people to keep horses in confinement their whole lives when the vast majority of us would not tolerate this treatment toward our dogs? Why is it still so normalized to isolate herd animals the way we do in North America with horses? The lack of a real education on equine behaviour is probably the driving factor behind this problem. The media makes stalling out to be the ideal way to keep a horse. Stall vices are sometimes viewed as funny quirks, rather than stress behaviours. Fear and an aversion to the outdoors and turnout is viewed as a preference rather than trauma stemming from isolation. Tight lips, wide eyes and ringing tails are viewed as excitement rather than pain or fear. Horses bucking, propping, wheeling and the like are generally viewed to either be excited or being stubborn assholes. Pain may be considered as a factor in these behaviours only after attempts to train out the behaviour using punishment have been unsuccessful.

A lot of “bad” anxious horses are horses that have been trying to communicate for so long while being ignored or misinterpreted. Some of the fun and quirky famous show horses you can recall with weird behaviours in the arena or pinned ears may have had something else going on, and one thing I can promise you is that none of them enjoy entering the arena to jump a 1.60m round in a double twisted wire gag and electrified spurs. None of them enjoy their job if it takes poling them to teach them to go clear. A grand prix dressage horse isn’t raring to go when they piaffe anxiously before entering the arena after their rider spent half an hour of their warm up hyper flexing them. We merely personify these behaviours because it makes them easier for us to accept them, and when it’s brought into question that perhaps what we’ve grown comfortable with is wrong, we balk. We become defensive. We deflect blame and insult others. We condescend, instead of just looking further into it. Or reading modern research. Or making an effort to learn… for the love of our horses.

Like I said, abuse is a sliding scale and the vast majority of us have probably been guilty of at least some form of abuse or neglect to our animals in our life time. Much of the time, this stems from ignorance rather than intent. I used to be terrible to my Arabian. I used bad equipment, I had bad stable management skills, and I isolated him via stalling far too much. Much of his bad behaviour was just him trying to communicate his frustration with me and I misread or ignored it. If I’d known more or had been more willing to look deeper at his behaviour, I could have helped him out sooner by just beginning to understand him. The way I treated my horse wasn’t the worst. He wouldn’t have been better off dead and he may not have been better off in a lot of other homes, but it still wasn’t good. Not being the worst isn’t an excuse to change where you could be better, and while our dwindling open space in this world may make some forms of good horse management more difficult, no change will ever be made if we fail to recognize our own shortcomings.

It’s time the show world calls out more of its bullshit because there are piles of it. We allow upper level riders and well liked riders to be let off the hook just because of their names and their accomplishments. A lot of our current regulations and subsequent punishments for breaking them do not adequately protect the horses. An extremely short ban for a major drugging violation isn’t enough of a deterrent for a wealthy rider with a full short string. A verbal “slap on the wrist” telling a rider not do something again after they’ve engaged in numerous episodes of poor sportsmanship on stressed horses with mouth pain from bits that should not be legal isn’t sufficient incentive to change. Ignoring poorly fitting equipment and too tight flashes when tack checks are supposed to be being done makes a mockery of the regulations. People who do wrong really do not have much to fear if they’re well liked enough. They know it’ll blow over, and they know it won’t make mainstream news unless it is something absolutely abhorrently bad and frankly, they just don’t care. We enable the corrupt bad guys by telling them what they’re doing is okay because it’s “not as bad as….” or “people are just jealous” or whatever excuse is dug up from the ever growing excuses book of why nothing needs to change.

The abuse we justify towards the horses also has a tendency to crossover to employees within the show world. It is FAR too common to see working student positions offered with no pay but promises of creating an amazing rider with upper level opportunities. Far too many of these opportunities do not offer enough in remuneration when you compare the demands and hours of the work entailed to get said lessons and learning experience. It’s unfair to expect hard labour to be completely free or in exchange for a small number of lessons per week, especially when many of these jobs end up requiring overtime hours but don’t appropriately compensate for them. Even for paid gigs, the rate of pay for a lot of show related grooming and stable management jobs isn’t reflective of the amount of work or the difficulty of said work. Back breaking labour and overtime hours shouldn’t be compensated at or under minimum wage with no overtime pay. In contrast, the rate of pay and appreciation for employees within the racing industry seems to be at a much higher standard, to the point where a lot of show industry employees leave and never look back. This is not to say the industry is perfect, but, there are far more safeguards for employees given the government influence due to the presence of gambling in horse racing. This makes it easier for employees to dispute unfair work conditions or unfair pay as well as making it a lot more likely that employers will abide by labour regulations appropriately.

Horse people are pro-tradition and anti-change. We need to be pro-change and anti-tradition if certain traditions allow for mistreatment of animals and go directly against a lot of good research that has been brought forth by modern behavioural science. Being a good rider isn’t enough in this world if we are truly in it for the horses. Being a good rider and winning ribbons is absolutely meaningless if it is done on the backs of unhappy, in pain and stressed out horses. It means nothing if the person doing the winning has little regard for the safety, happiness and comfort of their horses. These people do not deserve the accolades and should not be in the winner’s circle. We must reward good horsemanship, not just good riding. Good riding doesn’t truly exist without good horsemanship. The value of someone as a rider should be thrown out if they cannot also be a horse person who is motivated to do what is best for their mount.

If people within the horse world and general public feel that racing is too far gone and too corrupt to be reformed, then none of us in other disciplines deserve to be here either because we are all equally complicit. There are far fewer incentives to stop said corruption and to better the common thread of how to “properly” manage and produce show horses.

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Removing the Blinders on Racism in The Horse World

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Being a member of the equestrian community during such societal upheaval regarding protest for racial rights is an odd place to be, especially as a rider with a black father. My skin is more pale, so while my heritage may be less visible, it is there, hiding in the shadows of public opinion but patently present to me and my family. The reality of said heritage is something I grew up aware of and educated about. It was never any secret to me that people of colour were treated differently in society, as I saw it with my father. I saw it at shows when it was virtually unheard of to see a rider of colour. I still see it at shows when the few riders of colour are there because our sport is so whitewashed that it is uncommon to see good representation…unless you’re Caucasian, that is. I grew up never having any role models who were not white. To this day, most of the top riders (especially riders in North America) are white. Take a look at both the American and Canadian Olympic teams for our horse sports, then come back and try to argue that this sport isn’t whitewashed. It’s problematic.

This isn’t to say our Olympic riders don’t deserve their spots on the team, but rather that the sheer number of white equestrians versus equestrians of colour or other races makes it so that young aspiring minority equestrians rarely have role models who look like them. I’m sure some of you reading this will say it doesn’t matter, but oh it does. It’s not just in the horse world either; there is a lack of representation in movies, shows, toys, books and a great deal of other work forces and sports. This makes it so that children of colour don’t get the same privilege of looking up to idols who look like them, idols who make it clear that there is a place for them in whatever facet of the world we are referencing. In equestrian sports, it makes it so that many of the white riders grow so accustomed to being in a whitewashed world that they are oblivious to any issue with the lack of representation. Some even have the audacity to claim racism does not exist in the horse world.

You’re conditioned from a very young age to engage in a systemically racist society that rewards you for your skin colour but punishes everyone else.

The irony of white people claiming racism doesn’t exist is that in doing so they’re claiming they’re “woke” enough to not only notice every aspect of racism that occurs in their presence, but that they also have the ability to see every occurrence that happens to people of colour when they’re not around. It’s just such an incredibly ridiculous claim to make. Of course you haven’t noticed racism, Karen. You’re white. Your children are white. You’re conditioned from a very young age to engage in a systemically racist society that rewards you for your skin colour but punishes everyone else. As such, as a white person you shouldn’t be the voice on whether or not racism exists. You don’t see racism because you’re not looking for it and it doesn’t affect you. The existence of racism is invisible to many people when it doesn’t disrupt their daily lives.

Let me put this simply. We ride in a sport where judges freely discriminate against competitors for their choice of show jacket colour, and sometimes even untraditional horse colours and virtually any other departure from what we have come to know as “the tradition”. Riders frequently demean each other solely on aesthetics. There is pressure to wear the right brands, right colours and to not stray from the status quo. In the hunter ring, there is very strong pressure to do things like tucking all your hair into your helmet. Try to do this with extremely curly hair without straightening it. My hair isn’t even as thick or curly as the vast majority of black riders, and yet I’ve never successfully managed to tuck my hair in (yes, even in larger helmets) without causing major pressure points. The only way I can somewhat successfully do so is if I straighten my hair. And good luck to anyone who has braids in their hair; I can’t imagine how you could manage that without major pressure points or sacrificing the fit and safety of your helmet. Sure, you could just wear your hair in a low bun, but people have and will have a hay day screeching about how disrespectful it is because it “goes against tradition.” With this in mind, how the hell can you not believe racism exists? We already discriminate against other riders for things of little consequence- why is it hard to believe the prejudice that exists in every aspect of society also crosses over into the horse world, an elite and predominantly white, upper class sport? It would be more surprising if racism truly didn’t exist here, to be frank.

If equestrians can’t accept other riders’ clothing choices that do not harm or affect anyone, it isn’t hard to believe that the are less comfortable and less accepting of riders of colour in the sport. Since riders of colour are so uncommon, they also standout, making them subject to stares, veiled racist comments and the assumption that they must be grooms or stablehands because the throngs of white equestrians are so used to only noticing colour when they’re hiring stable help. Like I said before, I’m white passing. I have not personally experienced this, but I’ve observed it when hanging out with my friends of colour, and I’ve also heard many of stories from other equestrians of colour. The most important factor in hearing these stories is simple: you just need to bloody well listen. Unfortunately, much of the horse world is reluctant to do so. Sure, they’ll claim to be listening. They may even think they care, but the conversation almost always circles back to the denial of the lack of representation and defensiveness as though pointing out this reality is a personal attack on them and their own heritage. They may quick to deny the existence of racism but slow to look for any role models of colour. They fail to actually take note of their peers at the barn, their fellow competitors at shows, or all of the spectators in crowds at our sporting events. Hint: the vast majority of them are white.

My dad and I with my old horse, Farley.

My dad and I with my old horse, Farley.

The lack of awareness and inability to listen is also seen plainly in many equestrian organizations’ and companies’ responses to the Black Lives Matter movement. Many upper level riders who serve as role models for up and coming riders have yet to speak out publicly regarding the racial inequality or the lack of representation in our sport. Some have only done so after being essentially coerced into saying something after being called out on their lack of ability to address the current events,as well as the very real inequality in our beloved sport. Many highly visible and reputable equestrian magazines and companies have remained silent regarding their position or have taken a stance by handing the stage over to white equestrians to give their opinion on racism. While some of these white equestrians have written powerful articles and have been remarkable allies (Sophie Gochman, I’m looking at you), the lack of a voice in these publications from those who are tired of being “blacked out”, and the lack of support for black equestrians to use their platform to share their very real experiences speaks volumes. In some ways, this behaviour comes across as fake allyship. Organizations jump in on the conversation because they know the article will get views, but will they make meaningful, long-term change in the type of riders they feature and the kind of issues they address? Only time will tell.

The problem with the horse world is that many white riders struggle to come to terms with the addressing of the racism in our community without feeling threatened or becoming defensive of their own cultural background. They view calling people out on racist behaviour as a personal attack, rather than what it rightfully is: an attempt to address and reform a historical pattern of injustice. I’ve had people get upset with me for pointing out racism, telling me it is “mean” to call someone racist. I have a simple solution for all of you: don’t be racist. When someone calls you out on a culturally insensitive comment, listen with a desire to understand. Don’t get defensive. We all can make mistakes with our comments with no intention to hurt. Listen to why said comment is problematic, think about what you hear, then go read about some of the many examples of systemic racism in our society spanning over centuries. Apologize for your comment without adding the dreaded “but”. Just say sorry. Stop trying to justify your behaviour or guilt tripping the person who informed you of said behaviour. Apologize and strive to do better next time. If you’re not sure how to do better, ask. Questions are how we learn and grow! Someone will be happy to educate you on white privilege and how it affects the level of representation in the sport so many of us are so passionate about.

Trainers, professional riders and other role models of the horse world: the onus is on you to be vocally anti-racist. It isn’t enough to be neutral. Neutrality is what lets people be openly racist without consequence. The more behaviour is noticed and called out, the less frequently it can occur without repercussions. This isn’t a problem where impartiality is acdeptable. If you truly want to make our sport safe and accessible to all, it starts with having zero tolerance when it comes to racism. If you hear racist comments from clients, friends and family, speak up. Say something in order to allow for discussion and change. In staying silent, you’re inadvertently condoning what is said. Many of us, including myself, are guilty of this in attempt to avoid conflict, but we need to stop or this cycle has no hope in ending. Magazines, blogs and other news sources: give black people a voice now. You can talk about how you care about people of colour until you’re blue in the face, but if you keep handing the podium over to white people to discuss the existence of racism, you’re muting the powerful voices and experiences of people of colour. Allyship begins with allowing their voices to be heard, as they’ve been trying to be heard for decades.

I live in a very culturally diverse area of my country, Canada. An area in which I have largely felt safe and felt that most people are progressive enough to not discriminate based on race. I was wrong. The Black Lives Matter protests have resulted in a veil being lifted, revealing that many of the horse people (and other people, too) I once respected and appreciated are racist. It was a shock, to be honest, to realize that their acceptance of me was conditional. They didn’t know my heritage; my dad doesn’t come out to my shows or lessons anymore since he lives across the country. I have come to realize that some of my peers and colleagues treated me the same as their other white peers due to sheer ignorance of my background, but when the fight for racial equity became something they could no longer ignore, their prejudice reared its ugly head.

The most shocking and hurtful evidence of racism was mere days ago was when I came to know that my trainer/employer- someone whom I had respected and believed respected me- was not on my side. After the employer initiated a conversation about the Black Lives Matter movement, I was told to get off the property when I refused to agree that black people perpetuate racism on themselves and that white people “have a reason to be afraid of them.” This person chose to fire me rather than address their closet (now out of the closet after that discussion) racism. This person took extreme offence to me saying it was racist to claim that everyone has a reason to be uneasy around black people. They acted like it was a personal attack while brushing off all of the personal experiences and struggles of my black family members I shared. There is a problem when people get offended by the term “racist” when it absolutely applies to them but see no issue with brushing off the slave trade and the other horrible things we’ve done to people of colour and continue to do. It’s ass backwards, to be blunt. Brushing off people’s very real struggles, not giving a damn about people of colour being disproportionately targeted by police, receiving longer jail sentences than their white counter parts (yes, for the same crimes) and being more likely to be denied jobs because of their ethnic background is backward.

I’m sorry (I’m really not, though. If the shoe fits, wear it, Cinderella) if you’ve been called racist, but frankly screw you if you think you have more of a right to whine about your racism being exposed than people of colour have to bring attention to white privilege and our systemic mistreatment of them.

What white people have done to people of colour since they were first forced via the slave trade to set foot on North American soil is unforgivable. There is absolutely nothing we can do to make up for the Native American genocide and kidnapping black people from their native countries so we could enslave them. No amount of apologies or reparations can make up for those horrors. The one thing we can do is demand a better world right now and educate ourselves, and fight for it. Black mistreatment did not end with slavery. People did not go from abusing their slaves on the daily to “oh, shit, it’s illegal now! Better be nice!” You simply cannot dehumanize people to that extent and suddenly snap out of it. It’s an entrenched behaviour people grew comfortable with and passed onto their children. This dehumanization still exists and is present every time individuals try to derail the Black Lives Matter movement or claim to be the expert on racism as a white person. It is present every time people shout over black voices and insist that they as a white person are all knowing and shouldn’t have to listen. It is present when police officers publicly execute black men and women and get to freely leave the scene instead of in cuffs. It is present when we have to protest and riot to see any hope of justice happen in these situations. It is present every day, every hour, every minute because we’ve constructed a society where white people benefit from their privilege and they feel attacked by talk of equality because they view it as a breach of their rights and freedoms to have to treat others fairly.

I get that it is hard to come to terms with how we’ve systemically abused marginalized groups. It sucks. It’s devastating, it’s horrible to learn about all of the events of the past leading up to today. But, ignorance is more horrible. While it may feel blissful, you’re ignorant riding on the backs of other people who are being abused so you can continue to go about your day, your head in the clouds ignoring the horrors of our world. Coming to terms with white privilege and how our society works is hard. It’s nightmareish, but I promise you it is significantly less nightmareish than everything we have done and still continue to do to people of colour. Frankly, you have it easy if having to come to terms with your privilege and learn about all of the things your school education failed to teach you is the biggest hurdle you have to over come that is specific to your race.

Before the All Lives Matter peeps come in here, I want to leave you with this: If “all lives matter” and deserve recognition, would you be okay with a surgeon who is supposed to perform a life saving surgery on one of your loved ones, a surgery that needs to be done immediately, going “But wait, all lives matter” and addressing someone who came in with a fractured pinky? Probably not. Why? Because you’re able to recognize the fact that the level of severity when it comes to health concerns are triaged. The same can be said about racial discrimination. This isn’t against YOU or demeaming your value as a white person. We know all lives matter, but your life isn’t equally at risk. You don’t have to walk around the planet deflecting the hatred that is directed at you, hatred that solely stems from the colour of skin. Karen, you have the privilege of people only hating you because of your bad attitude. The same can’t be said about people of colour. You all have the ability to recognize the importance of attention when it comes to other issues. You don’t get jealous of your neighbour with the burning down house and say “All houses matter, come focus on mine!”, you don’t look at your depressed friend in the eyes after they’ve experienced a loss and be like “Ya, my goldfish died once, my life matters too!”

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The only reason you’re trying to derail the Black Lives Matter movement is because something makes you uncomfortable about people of colour advocating for the rights and acceptance they deserve, and that’s a problem you seriously need to address. If you can fathom people directing attention to the issues that deserve it the most in other aspects of your life but cannot fathom why it’s “Black Lives Matter”, the only thing changing your understanding is that race was brought into the equation. And that, my friend, is veiled racism. You put blinders on to protect yourself from the realization that the manner in which you live negatively impacts others and when they try to force you to see it, you get defensive, lash out and make it about yourself because you simply cannot handle people of colour getting any sort of spotlight. It’s problematic, it’s engendered racism. It’s reality..

I implore all of you reading this to sit down and think about your presence in the horse world as a white person. Have you ever been the only one of your ethnic background at your barn? At shows? Have you ever struggled to find role models who come from similar backgrounds to you? If you live in North America, the answer is probably no. If you get heated over the term Black Lives Matter, I can only imagine how upset and out of place you’d feel if you were consistently one of few white people in your sport and were treated differently because of it. The bottom line is that we need to make this sport accessible and that starts with addressing the whitewashed, elitist nature of it. It starts with not accepting racist comments from your trainers, students, and friends just because you don’t think they’re “that bad”. It starts with being a true ally and standing up to those who make friends of colour feel out of place. It starts with the realization of how our world has worked and still works against people of colour. It starts to willing to look at the skeletons in our closets and addressing them, coming to terms with them and learning because of it.

Together, we can allow our sport to be more diverse and we can start to fight against the systemic racism all of us have grown comfortable with due to it not directly affecting us. But, that starts with some uncomfortable conversations, reflecting on ourselves and having the courage to call out the wrongdoings we notice. We need to also hold companies and brands more accountable and demand for more models of diverse backgrounds when it comes to equestrian fashion. Learn about your privilege as a white person and how to be the best ally you can. When people point out your white privilege, instead of getting upset, try to remember that they do not mean your life hasn’t had challenges or that you haven’t worked hard. All they mean is that you are universally accepted because of your skin colour and not likely to experience discrimination because of it. White privilege simply refers to the ability to live your life in a world that isn’t systemically biased against you. That’s it. It isn’t an attack on or or your “3 jobs” that you worked in order to ride horses. It’s referencing the fact that while it may be hard to work that much, you still have the ability to have money to spend past necessities. For many, hard work isn’t enough. Hard work doesn’t get them far enough above the poverty line to afford horses. Hard work doesn’t miraculously allow them to take months off paid work to become a working student. Hard work, to many, is working your ass off to afford the bare minimum and no matter how hard they work not being able to escape from discrimination directed at them solely due to the colour of their skin.

It is understandable how you may grapple to come to terms with the reality of what it is like to experience racism when you don’t personally experience it. It’s understandable to be confused and naive. This is why you need to listen. Listening is the best way you can start to educate yourself on problematic behaviours and what people of colour actually are going through. Listening will start to help you see the world through their lens and it will make you a better ally. Many of people’s problematic behaviours come from genuine ignorance rather than completely ill intent but your willingness to listen and learn is what will set you apart from others.

So, here’s to accountability and opening our ears to listen to the struggles. Here is to addressing the elitism, classism and racism within the horse world so we can allow our sport to be accessed and safe for people from all backgrounds. We can all be better but that starts with realizing and acknowledging our faults.

Skewed Priorities in the Horse World

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As a general rule, equestrian sports are slow to change and rely heavily on their traditions, often without questioning how or why said traditions came about. This, in turn, makes people less likely to consider new information if it threatens the way of life they’ve always known. Like their horses, they balk at new concepts. Concepts that bring the potential of having to evaluate the way things are done and what is justified as a community. Things they may have been guilty of doing themselves. This conservative mentality limits the growth that we could potentially have if we learn to look critically at practices that are still largely accepted.

To put it in perspective, there seems to be a tacit acceptance for critiquing the aesthetics of other riders while at the same time a reluctance to address potentially harmful horsemanship practices. It isn’t uncommon to see riders shamed or ridiculed for straying from the status quo when it comes to horse show fashion. While the traditional boundaries are being pushed more and more in equestrian fashion, someone will always decide when you’ve pushed too far. Be a show coat that’s a little too bright or a material one views as not formal enough: remember when the internet was a dumpster fire over Dani Goldstein’s lace jacket? The article discussing her attire got more outrage than a lot of articles discussing other big name riders and trainers abusing their horses or students. We’ve also had articles go viral in the online horse community that demean the severity of drug abuse by comparing horseback riding to an addiction on par with or worse than any pharmaceutical addiction.Why on earth would we want to compare a passion that enriches our lives to a disease that destroys lives? Tasteless in my opinion, especially since abuse (substance, physical or  mental) already exists in our industry and need not be normalized or glorified. But hey, I’m a sensitive snowflake for thinking that. What can I say, my sensitive self foolishly expects addicts to be treated as people who warrant compassion, understanding and treatment, rather than a catchy punchline for an article talking about how often you ride your horse.

Similarly, as a community we are very accepting of unwanted criticism, even if it is worded in a unconstructive manner and with the intent to degrade the recipient. The amount of times I’ve been told by riders and trainers alike that I signed up for mistreatment by choosing to post  online is excessive. You see, the problem with this attitude is that we are making it the victim’s job to take responsibility for the poor behaviour of others and feel ashamed for posting their riding journey if they can’t take the heat from strangers picking them apart for every little thing. While people can’t expect to post frequently on public forums without ever meeting negativity, the fact that we have become acclimated to hateful comments as the norm due to their frequency says an awful lot. And the message being sent is not good.

Even in lessons and clinics, we can hear equestrians justifying harsh comments from trainers as “not sugarcoating” or “being blunt because that’s what good trainers do” when said comments seem to have the intent to embarrass the person they are referencing. Some comments are just flat out cruel and aren’t constructive whatsoever.  There are well known trainers I’ve audited or watched footage from their clinics who have made disparaging comments to their students regarding weight, appearance or ability in front of public audiences. Much more common than any appearance based digs, though, are unnecessarily cruel comments veiled as constructive criticism. Some trainers seem to be incapable of making corrections without adding in condescension and insults. Such behaviours either run people out of the horse world completely if they can’t develop a thick skin to take such comments (and people making fun of them for being too sensitive if they can’t), or they create long lasting anxieties and insecurities that poison riders’ abilities to enjoy the sport they initially joined for the love of the horse. It sucks the fun out of riding if you’re constantly paranoid about being yelled at or embarrassed while striving to improve.

In writing this, I am aware that if it gains enough traction, I will eventually see comments from those exact types of people- the ones who will say “you’re too sensitive if you can’t take intentionally mean spirited comments.” To those, I ask: Why then are our professional educators not taught to teach using ridicule and condescension? Why are the teachers who educate you, your children, siblings and friends instead taught that the manner in which you frame your corrections and relay information will determine how well received it is? It’s almost as though psychologically, there is a way that is most effective to connect with people and have them learn from what you say… Oh wait, there definitely is. It’s called teaching theory and a lot of equine instructors would crash and burn if they had to learn more about education than yelling or putting down the up and coming riders who look  to them for guidance and growth. Teachers in our education system are taught to be adaptable to different learning styles, to be facilitating and encouraging, and that the building of relationships is most important to learning.Teachers are supposed to instill a willingness to take risks and ask questions that allow for skills to progress, not scare them out of ever asking questions due to fear of being snapped at. Whether you feel a riding coach’s rude comments are justified, the fact of the matter is that from a psychological perspective, it is simply not the most effective way to teach. Being a dictator and forcing people to bend to your teaching style or risk being shamed for it isn’t good teaching.

With that said, there is a difference between condescending remarks and being honest with your students. You absolutely can give criticism while leaving it constructive and not being insulting. Adding in extra digs to make someone feel bad about themselves doesn’t add any more weight to the information you share; it just plants a seed of anxiety or uncertainty that might blow up later in the rider’s career. But, hey, this type of behaviour in training barns is still so publicly accepted that it is  common to hear riders either moving barns or leaving the industry altogether because of it. I find this sad.

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While the horse community is busy defending questionable teaching styles and their right to make fun of Sally Sue’s pink show coat,it  unfortunately isn’t the most welcoming of other discussions. At the forefront of unwanted (or at the very least, uncomfortable) discussions is animal husbandry for our equine partners. You see, people get uncomfortable if you dare point out that the 1200lb animals we love to ride and show are more than just fancy vehicles to take us into the show ring. Some may feel attacked if you dare breathe word that perhaps some of our widely accepted modern care practices for horses aren’t all they’re cracked up to be. Even if you substantiate a need for change using relevant studies and scholarly information, people will still grasp at straws to say why this doesn’t apply to them. Let me remind you of the five basic freedoms of living things:

  • Freedom from thirst, hunger and malnutrition by ready access to a diet to maintain full health and vigour.

  • Freedom from thermal and physical discomfort. ...

  • Freedom from pain, injury and disease. ...

  • Freedom from fear and distress. ...

  • Freedom to express normal behaviour.

Can you honestly say that these needs are met if you look at a lot of modern boarding arrangements for horses? It is not uncommon to see barns with stalls that allow horses no means of interacting with one another. Boarded up walls, stalls often no larger than 12x12. Small paddocks, again with no means of allowing social interaction and not an awful lot of room to run, if any room to canter at all. Feeding via large meals a few times a day, with horses going hours without forage. Such accommodations are a major issue for a trickle feeding herd animal. Some competition mounts may remain bundled up in heavy blankets through the spring and summer to prevent growing too long of a coat, something that would ruin the shiny aesthetic at shows. The lack of allowance of natural behaviour also results in horses who are not free from fear or distress. Cribbing, stall walking, weaving, and aggressive behaviours toward humans or other horses, along with other odd stereotypic behaviours, are not unusual habits seen in some barns. I’m sure most riders at a boarding barn can name at least one horse with one of these habits; whether they picked up the habit at that stable or another, who can really say they haven’t seen it? The kicker is that these behaviours aren’t present in wild horses because they are stress behaviours specifically stemming from lack of ability to move.

Don’t even get me started on freedom from pain, injury and disease. While injury, to some extent, is inevitable in any working human or animal, there is a limit. The lengths some people are willing to go to in order to mask pain or prolong the riding career of a horse that probably doesn’t need to be in a full work program, let alone jumping, is disturbing. At some point, it is no longer about the comfort of the horse (an excuse many use) and is more about the rider’s desire to achieve their dreams and goals with the horse. This obviously isn’t applicable to all cases, but the ease with which we justify varying levels of maintenance is something we need to be mindful of. Requiring maintenance shouldn’t be viewed as typical care for an athlete; it should be viewed as treatment of an ailment likely caused from activity or some pre-existing injury. Say it how it is. While some people may go to the chiropractor for basic maintenance, people like me go because, well, our backs are f*cked. I won’t sugarcoat it: I know why I take care of my body the way I do and why I have the pain I do. Own it for your horses, too. Make sure you know what you’re treating any time you do an invasive treatment and make sure you’re aware of how the workload you ask of the horse may influence said issue. If it is likely to influence it badly enough to rob them of comfort  in retirement, perhaps it is time to reconsider.

I suppose this blog post is merely a long winded way of me expressing my frustrations with what we view as acceptable on a public scale in the horse world versus what we sweep under the rug. Ethical conversations make some people uncomfortable to the point where they want to shut the discussion down instead of responding with a rebuttal and some sources on why they do not believe it to be an issue. Consider why these discussions regarding ethics and the way we handle and treat equines angers you, if it does. Consider reading further into certain issues if they actually have scientific merit, too. It isn’t shameful to recognize previous mistakes and learn from them; in fact, growth should be encouraged. You’re not selling your old self out if you realize something you used to do isn’t okay and choose to make the change. I used to be the exact type of equestrian that worries me now. A rider who genuinely loved their horses but blindly followed the status quo, depriving them of turnout and socialization and using unfair equipment without a care in the world. I loved my horse,and I genuinely wanted what was best for him but at the time, I was incredibly naive and it most definitely affected his care. Now, I look back on my errors and continue to better myself and my knowledge of equine behaviour. I actively seek the most ethical way to apply training to horses and to keep them in a living situation that is most fair to them with what I have to offer.

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This isn’t to say that everything you do with horses has to be a perfect, best case scenario in terms of care. We live in a modernized world and the amount of space horses SHOULD have isn’t always possible. However, if people aren’t even aware that lack of space or socialization is a problem to begin with or if they deny it, then there isn’t any room to make adjustments to make the situation as good for the horse as they possibly can. If people continue to be hard headed about certain training practices that rely on causing the horse immense fear or pain, then there isn’t a lot of room for growth. Some people proudly proclaim that they rough up their horses when they’re bad and if you suggest that perhaps taking a whip to your horse isn’t the best way to instill confidence in trailer loading, you’re a fluffy Parelli loving natural horsemanship junkie who feeds their horse treats when they’re bad. People are so anti change that they oversimplify horse training and care to the point where you either have to be as harsh as them or a total push over who has horses without manners. It’s utter nonsense.

Some of our horse sports are more regulated than others, too. Dressage riders will feel less compelled to take shortcuts through bitting up because there are so many rules regarding what bits are legal that it makes no sense to throw on a thin twisted wire or some type of gag, but, in the show jumping ring pretty much anything flies. It’s doing the horses a disservice if we justify equipment that cannot mechanically work without exerting excessive force or creating pressure points. In denying how certain types of bits work, we’re shutting out information for our own selfish benefits, not the horses’. I’m not anti-bit or bitting up in any sense, but there should be a limit. The fact that double twisted wire gags exist and are justified because “some horses are strong” or the fact that mule bits are a thing that people actually buy and use and see no issue with is something really startling. I agree, some horses are strong, but the extent you’re willing to put them in pain or discomfort to address their strength speaks volumes about your horsemanship. Some horses do need stronger bits, but there are bits that are unfair even with the softest of hands. We need to recognize that. We need to start questioning things within our own communities and cleaning up our act. Horse people outside of the racing community don’t care too much about the protests to end racing, but if that is ever successful, we are next and there are equally as horrifying things going on at our competitions if people choose to find them. We are lucky we aren’t under the microscope as much as horse racing because we sure as hell are not immune to abuse in the show industries and we aren’t as fortunate to have such good access to injury databases and a large sample of studies resulting from it to learn from our mistakes in the same way.

The bottom line is that if we are in the horse world because we love the animals, we shouldn’t tolerate unnecessary judgment and social pressure towards our human participants while dropping the ball or feeling attacked if someone even dares question the treatment of the horse participants. People are so afraid of change impeding their ability to continue living the way they know that they fail to look further into anything that questions that way of life. Horses can’t speak for themselves, so we need to speak the loudest. We are their voices and we have been silent about far too many things.

It’s time that horse people start valuing the opinions of professional equine behaviourists and other types of scholars and scientists who share the research and studies we are lucky enough to have on horses. Their opinions should be esteemed far above that of upper level professionals. We need to realize that someone’s ability to ride and win isn’t necessarily indicative of a program that is inherently fair to the horse. It is perfectly possible to be a phenomenal rider and produce winning rounds, all while having horses that do not receive the 5 basic freedoms and may express a lot of stress behaviours in their time off.

 After all, if we aren’t in this for the horse, then why the hell are we here?



Horse Rookie: Different Jump Types


Arrowheads, corners, skinnies… and the list goes on. For equestrians new to the world of jumping, learning about all the types of jumps may tempt you to reach for a dictionary. Fear not! 

In this article, I’ll break down 35 of the most common types of horse jumps (i.e. fences) across show jumping, eventing, and hunter/jumper arenas

Read more: http://horserookie.com/jumps

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What I Learned From My Horse's Death

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My Thoroughbred gelding died before ever seeing his 5th birthday, something that just seems so wickedly unfair to me. A loss before his life even really began. Even in those short years, my George dealt with an awful lot of adversity that allowed him to prove just how special he was. The type of brain he had could not be created or bought, it was just who he was. He dealt with everything life threw at him with complete and utter class and kindness, never complaining and always just happy to see his people. His first year off the track involved surgery for slab fracture and bone chip repair in Winter 2018, as if the surgery itself wasn’t enough, he had to get put under general anesthesia twice because one of the screws used to repair the slab fractures broke inside of him and the clinic did not have the equipment to remove it on site at the time, so he was put under and opened up again a couple of days later. From there, 2019 was 90% rehab. I took it exceptionally slow with him, the actual recovery for slab fractures and chips is quite good because bones heal fairly quickly compared to soft tissue injuries, he was supposed to be back to full capacity in about 4 months but as May rolled around, I was barely riding him past the trot, only a little bit of canter. The summer months involved further conditioning, adding jumps in here or there and lots of body and chiropractic work to get him feeling his best. We were training to go to the 2019 Thoroughbred Makeover and while I knew how behind we were, I never felt right trying to drill him on things or riding more often than 4 days a week.

As the competition neared closer, I cracked down even further on his body work and preventative treatments, all of August and half of September was reserved to long and low flatwork to get him stretching out and feeling good. We did 2 more jump schools prior to him going down to Kentucky, leaving it so that he’d done about 3 classes total over fences at shows and had fairly limited jump schooling at home and then it was time to go to Kentucky. George was far greener than I had intended him to be when we went to the Makeover. I’d lost a ton of time to train him better over fences and get him used to spookier jumps, so when we arrived and I saw that the 2’6” course had a skinny fence and not one, but two combinations, I was a little worried. But, true to his nature, George went in and jumped all of these new things without batting an eye and without even considering a stop. This 4 year old had just travelled across the continent and into an entirely new climate and he didn’t bat an eye. He didn’t care about the Rolex ring, the bustling warm ups. Nada. While we didn’t place more than middle of the pack in either show jumping or dressage, I was completely blown away by his attitude and how fun and easy he made the whole experience, settling right into his new routine of things without looking back. His going to the Makeover served the important purpose of helping to showcase how injured TBs can make a comeback and do great things after rehabbing their respective injuries. I used him as a means to help encourage people to consider horses who have injuries that are able to be rehabbed for their respective disciplines and in taking him to Kentucky, George brought me such happiness. He allowed me to meet new friends and meet up with people I’d met online but never had the chance to meet in person. He allowed me to gallop on Kentucky bluegrass, to step foot into the famed Rolex ring. He made it all so simple and enjoyable, we both had so much fun hacking around Kentucky Horse Park, it was one of the best times I’ve ever had. True happiness just hanging out with my George and my mom and getting to experience horse culture in a new area.

George at Kentucky Horse Park

George at Kentucky Horse Park

After returning from Kentucky, I decided to give George the winter off riding because of how hard he had worked and how phenomenal he had been at the Makeover. He was really blossoming over the fall and early winter, I started him into a light groundwork program end of November and he was looking fantastic. He’d adjusted to being barefoot quite well and was moving great, happy and full of life. He’d even started throwing these gigantic bucks during free lunging, heels kicking over his head, something I’d never really seen from him given how calm he typically is. The last time I worked him before everything started going down hill, we had a lovely light lunge. He was moving well, playing and all in all, just happy and excited. The horses in the fields next to the arena started to play and this set him off on a series of leaps and bucks, totally jovial. His large galumphing self actually managed to break the lunge line in his play time and he went for a trot down the driveway, tail flagging, moving like he felt like he was Valegro. My farrier was there trimming another horse and saw him go by: “Wow, he looks great!” followed by some laughing and the very easy task of catching my horse who was now flirting with the miniature horse in the paddock near the driveway.

Shortly after this, BC was hit with rain, which is normal, but this was enough rain to justify building Noah’s Ark. This postponed any plans to keep horses in light work, so they became field horses. As the New Year rolled around, I one day noticed that George was walking a little stiff, nothing overly concerning, but definitely stiff. He had some mud fever so we treated him for that, I moved him into a drier stall for a few days and then brought him out and he was happy again. A few days after that, though, I noticed that he was moving stiffly again, more so this time, so I hauled him to the vet clinic to have him assessed. This started the many weeks of testing and diagnostics, including but not limited to a full pelvic exam with images, stifle x-rays, hock x-rays, bloodwork and so on. I moved him to a client’s house where he could hang out with my young colt and he started a course of banamine and dex to help reduce any swelling that could be causing his discomfort. We touched base with the vet weekly while we waited for his bloodwork to come back from the clinic, testing for everything from EPM to any type of deficiency that may cause his discomfort. The stiffness moved to occasionally having his hind end slip and he quickly grew more wobbly in a matter of weeks. It was hitting a point where I felt backed into a corner and that I had to make a decision for his well being soon, while he didn’t appear to be in pain (still would play, lay down and hang with friends), how wobbly he was made me increasingly more concerned for his safety. The blood work took a while to get back, the clinic hadn’t run it when we’d thought they did so we ended up putting a rush on it and then started treating George with Marquis at the beginning of February in hopes of addressing a potential EPM issue. When the blood came back, it wasn’t overly helpful at confirming EPM definitively, due to the lack of spinal tap and his numbers sitting at around 50% for potential exposure. We kept him on the Marquis and continued treating him with Dex to manage at spinal swelling, he was wobbly but stable for now and we had hopes that the Marquis would at least return him to being pasture sound.

George playing in the snow, winter 2019.

George playing in the snow, winter 2019.

George was on the Marquis for 9 days and was actually stable and starting to look like he was improving when I got the call that no horse owner wants to get. He was down and having trouble getting up, I’d just seen him that afternoon and he was looking fine. He’d nickered at me, I’d scratched him, gave him his Marquis and left. This was the one day I’d forgotten to give him some of his treats and still to this day, I can’t think about that without crying. The one day I forget to give him cookies and really remind him how much he was loved was his last and that’s not something I can ever change. I left a dinner date with my boyfriend and we hauled ass over to the barn. My mom was already there and I’d given her the okay to euthanize him whenever the vet arrived because I didn’t want him to suffer while he waited for me to get there. Luckily, I made it just as the vet was pulling in.

The night of his death was horrible. We had to separate the horses for safety purposes and Banksy, my colt, was screaming for him. Prior to them being separated, Banksy had stood with him and kept him company until we were able to get the vet there. He knew something was wrong. Despite clearly not feeling himself, George would also call back. He’d always had this odd, breathy sounding whinny that would sound like he was trying to scream and was never loud. It was so specific to him that I could pick it out from miles away and now, I know I’ll never hear it again.

I let the vet get everything ready while I said a very quick goodbye, I didn’t want to prolong the situation for my benefit. It wasn’t fair for me to keep him around longer than what was needed, just so I could selfishly say a longer goodbye. I sat with him as he took his last breaths, all very peaceful, and then he was gone. Having to cut off your 4 year old’s tail knowing it’ll never grow back and that the tail is all you have left of them, that is the true feeling of emptiness. It was all just so brutally unfair. He’d deteriorated so fast and despite my best efforts, we hadn’t been able to save him. I insisted on a necropsy for closure and also in an effort to try and find out what the heck had gone on with him. I couldn’t be at the barn when his body was being picked up but I was there hours after to check on my colt. The emptiness and silence that was in the air could be cut with a knife. In all appearances, nothing at the farm had changed but there was a stark difference in the air. A heaviness and an emptiness, a hole that couldn’t be filled,

Having to go back to work and normal care of my horses was weird. Life just went on and the demands of work and my personal commitments to my other horses never really gave me a proper chance to grieve my loss. I got caught back up in the bustle of things and left my emotions on the sidelines, never really appropriately facing what had happened and definitely not wanting to. It was a feeling of numbness, a definite denial, just looking the other way instead of actually facing what happened. This was easier, for me, to move on, I guess. But, it meant that while in all appearances I looked and felt fine, even shortly after his death, I wasn’t. All it took was an aptly timed memory of him, a photo, or a comment to bring back all of the unresolved grief.

Being so active on social media did not help the scenario. People who’d never even met George were desperate for someone to blame and that someone was me. I’ve been told that I was selfish for trying to treat him for EPM and that I should’ve euthanized right away instead of only treating him for my own benefit. While, in hindsight, maybe this is true, with my vet’s recommendations and the fact that his issues could very well be treatable, I wasn’t strong enough to let go then due to the fact that it was very well possible his necropsy could come back with an issue I could’ve attempted to treat but didn’t. The blame game soon introduced a new thing to blame me for: people telling me I murdered my horse. It has been over two months since his death and even as recently as last week, I’ve had people make fake accounts with the sole purpose of informing me that I killed my horse and if it weren’t for me, he’d be alive. I’ve been told that if we’d never gone to Kentucky, he’d still be alive. This could very well be true and I’d be lying if I didn’t say I’d already considered this myself long before anyone brought it up. EPM is more common in the midwest, but it does still exist in my area, to a lesser extent. I’ve looked back on our Kentucky trip and wondered if it actually was a factor in his death, obviously with what I know now, I wouldn’t have gone, if it would make a difference. But, hindsight is 2020 and I’ll never know. I blame myself for his death in the same way I’d blame myself if my horses had a trailering accident or something. At the end of the day, yes, I would be the one who loaded them in the trailer, a variable that would guarantee their death if the situation went awry in a manner to cause that. So, yes, whatever George did end up getting exposed to, at the end of the day, my choice in show venues or where he was turned out could’ve influenced that and that’s something I have to live with and already would have been living with without people trying to make the situation worse. But, at the end of the day, we are technically all taking “risks” with our horses. It’s a risk to load a horse into a trailer to go anywhere, even trail riding. Hell, we even risk our own lives getting in the car. If I could’ve foreseen this situation, I would’ve definitely changed what I did, but I never would’ve expected my 4 year old to go from healthy and well to having a debilitating illness in a matter of weeks.

When George’s necropsy did come back, it did little to provide me with closure. He had spinal lesions that were consistent with EPM but tested negative for having it when they tested his spinal fluids and tissues. Their best guess was EPM or an EPM-like parasite that they could not test for, so I didn’t really get the answers I wanted other than adding fuel to my anxiety in wondering how many other organisms could wreak havoc like EPM all while not being able to be tested for.

George at the racetrack in 2019.

George at the racetrack in 2019.

Despite being a part of the horse world for so long, the death of one of my personal horses was something that I’d been lucky enough to avoid for quite some time. Sure, in the past, I lost client horses or friends’ horses that I really loved and while that was painful, it was definitely different from losing one of my own. I recognize how fortunate I am to have evaded such a sad reality of horse ownership for so long, but for me, the lack of loss didn’t change the level of anxiety I experienced everyday in trying to make sure my horses were healthy and well. You see, long before George’s death, I would already have nightmares or intrusive thoughts about my horses doing terrible things, to the point where I’d often leave the outdoor lights on at night just so I can watch them and check for every sound, try to prevent any accident from happening. Growing up in the horse world for so long had already made me hyper aware of how accident prone and fragile horses can be. I’d already heard of so many freak accidents with devastating consequences, all without losing any of my own horses. These accidents just contributed to making me more and more paranoid, to the point now that I can look at virtually any pasture turnout or stall and point out a whole plethora of potentially dangerous things horses can get into, even in the safest of paddocks. So, as you can imagine, having my horse die at just a 4 years of age has made this worse. Much worse.

Now, in the months following George’s death, I’ve had several nightmares about my other horses dying by a whole laundry list of other freak accidents. I run to the windows and watch them for hours if I hear any noise, worried about someone getting hurt, sick or needing the vet out for any serious problem. I think about it constantly and I can’t seem to stop thinking about all of the possible ways my horses could die suddenly, despite them all being young and healthy. It’s something that haunts me and probably always will. I’m completely and utterly paranoid and no matter how safe I try to make their lives, it isn’t enough because these animals are just so accident prone and I just don’t know if I could survive the loss of another. I’m hoping it’ll get better in the future but considering I already had so much anxiety and paranoia about these exact things, my anxiety coming true in George’s death has only made it worse and I can’t see that changing.

I’m trying to heal and trying to let go of the negative thoughts so I can stop worrying about the inevitable and other things I cannot predict or change. It’s incredibly hard to do as someone who already struggles so much with pessimism and anxiety, but I’m trying. I’m also trying to ignore the negativity from others and trying to honour George’s memory by doing things to continually support OTTBs coming off the track with injuries that require rehab. In his death, I can only hope that he will still serve as an ambassador for the Thoroughbred breed and help push more people to consider them, whether they’re injured or uninjured because they’re such amazing horses. I can only hope that he brought positive change in his time on this earth while I try to navigate this world without him here.

Months later, I’m finally ready to write this. Last night, I came across some photos of George playing in the snow last winter and it was like someone drove a knife through my heart. He was so happy, playful and full of life and now that life is gone. It’s hard to come to terms with the reality that I’ll never see him again but everyday it gets more real. I take solace in the fact that I’m fortunate enough to have his half sibling who has many of George’s traits, but, at the end of the day I’m still trying to figure out the appropriate way to deal with unresolved grief and how unfair the entire situation feels. If anything, George in his life and in his death has allowed me to see the very best and worst of the horse industry. It has connected me to people who’ve dealt with similar problems in their young TBs and been left without a horse and with many unanswered questions. It’s also allowed me to be flooded with amazingly kind and thoughtful comments, artworks of George and other things people have taken the time out of their day to make for me and it has been incredible to see. I’m so appreciative to everyone who has reached out and been kind, even if it has been hard for me emotionally to respond to these types of comments regarding George’s death.

What I’ve learned from his death is that life is fleeting. We get comfortable in our everyday schedule and assume it will never change and then a wrench is thrown into our plans and the world is flipped upside down. Appreciate the good moments you share with your horses and try to remind yourself even in moments of frustration that your horse won’t be around forever and a few minor set backs or frustrating rides is still time spent with the horse you love. Appreciate it all and hug your horses. Also, be kind and considerate to others who are navigating their own loss because no matter the situation, all of us tend to beat ourselves up and try to place blame on ourselves without you helping by doing it for us. There is always guilt and that guilt rests with me constantly when I think about the fact that on his last day, I was in too much of a rush to get to work to give him a treat. A treat that would have been his last treat. The last thing he got from me was medication and now I have to live with that.

Snuggling with George, early 2020.

Snuggling with George, early 2020.

The Crazy Horse Girl Stereotype

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Growing up, I was called the crazy horse girl a lot and in some ways, maybe I was a little crazy. Playing imaginary horse games with my friends at recess where we ran around riding our pretend horses. The thing was, though, that as the only resident equestrian in the group of imaginative kids, all of the rude remarks and stereotypes regarding horse girls were directed at me despite other kids participating equally. I was punished for having an imagination, for having something I was passionate enough to talk about in class and do projects on. I would look on at the boys who were the very same fanatic way about soccer or hockey and it was accepted. No one ever called them crazy for their passion, it was fine.

Flash forward to high school and it only gotten worse. I’m sure virtually all horse women can attest to the fact that the whole “ride me like you ride your horse” was a frequent pick up line used on us. Some may say that this was a compliment but in all honesty it’s just creepy and gross, unless you’re into bestiality and that’s also creepy and gross. On top of this, the sexual remarks also turned to insults “At least I don’t fuck horses” and so on and so forth. The sexualization of horseback riding is always something that has mystified me. I spend pretty equal time with my horses as I do with my dog and cat, yet I’ve never had a man question my love for my dog and turn it into something sexual. The hypersexualization of women who ride horses predominately comes from men, but in turn, these insults and demeaning remarks are used by women who think it’s something that will give them an edge in an argument.

The truth of the matter is that I think all of these things come from a lack of security. Insecure men who are put off by the independence, bravery and drive that so many horse people show. Insecure women who feel the need to knock other women down, latching onto the first insult that pops into their mind despite the fact that it falls short. I’m sure a lot of you reading this have dealt with this and for those of you in high school or who frequent the internet where you may run into insecure men and women, you probably hear it a lot.

In high school, I neglected to post much about my horses despite the fact that they were an important part of my life. I didn’t want to share my passion where anyone from school could see it in case they’d use it to make fun of me. I regret that immensely now. Horses have been a large part of shaping who I am and I don’t think many people can say they have a sport they’ve been dedicated to for the majority of their life with little in ways of a break. Horseback riding taught me strength, patience, overcoming adversity and most importantly, how to handle a large and unpredictable animal, something that teaches a lot of training skills that can cross over to other species. Horses have become my career now and I can happily say that I’m earning more money than a lot of people who make fun of me. Using the horse girl trope to put me down doesn’t really hold the same basis anymore when it’s quite literally been the driving factor behind my success and independence in creating my own business.

So, to those of you who are still experiencing the ridicule that comes from this stupid stereotype, I implore you to start asking these people why they think so much about having sex with animals. Maybe suggest a therapist. It says a lot more about the people behind these watered down insults than it says about any woman within the equestrian world. Normal people with animals that they love and spend time with don’t think about them sexually. The fact that guys do this about horses should really be the only embarrassing thing in relation to this. Do not let some small minded person with such a small vocabulary that they have to latch onto making fun of someone over the animals they spend time with. Do not let someone who is likely afraid to touch a horse let alone ride one make you feel small. Don’t let them change how often you share about an important factor in your life. They’re the weird ones. They’re the ones with the problem and to be honest, if they go out of their way to slight you for something so stupid, take it as a compliment because they’re probably intimidated by you. If you can handle a spooky horse, some bully with lame insults is a cake walk to deal with.

Be proud of what you do. The hockey guys get away with it. The soccer fans get away with it. We can, too. This sport is equally, if not more, complex and we truly never start learning. Working with animals adds an extra variable to our sport and makes it so we constantly have to adjust our training style to keep learning, not all horses are the same, there isn’t a cookie cutter way to ride and handle them. To be a rider, you have to be adaptable. You have to be brave and you have to love the sport. All of these qualities will positively impact you in life and you’re apart of something far bigger than you realize, don’t let people ruin it for you. It’s time we make those who perpetuate the weird horse girl trope and sexualize riding feel stupid for thinking this way because frankly, it’s gross and weird. I’ll never be ashamed of being dedicated to my sport and I’ll never regret all of the incredible people and animals I’ve met because of this sport.

You do have to be a little crazy to dedicate so much time and money to being in the horse world but that level of craziness is no different from those who dedicate several hours a week to their respective sports. We are all just merely doing what it takes to meet the goals we set for ourselves. We are no different.

Be proud and enjoy the ride.

Incrediwear Exercise Bandages: Review

In the pursuit of getting my horses to look and feel their best whilst in work, I have tried an awful lot of therapy products, protective boots, wraps and so on and so forth. Especially after my main horse, Milo, sustained a soft tissue injury a couple of years ago, doing my best to keep his legs healthy and feeling good has been of the utmost importance to me. With the amount of therapy products on the market, finding the right ones can feel a little daunting, especially with the speculation as to whether or not the therapy technology works.

When I first discovered Incrediwear products, I was intrigued, particularly by their exercise wraps because of their ability to be utilized as ice wraps if you apply cool water to them. This was fascinating to me and the convenience of being able to easily ice legs at horse shows without having to worry about bringing a freezer to put them in is a huge problem solver for me. I’ve yet to find a mini fridge that could actually freeze ice packs all of the way through, leaving icing legs at shows something to be desired.

My first impression upon receiving the bandages was that the material was high quality. The width of the bandages is 5”, more than most polo wraps or other stretchy bandages I’ve used. The material is similar to a tensor bandage, thick and stretchy but with good resistance. This makes them more difficult to wrap properly so they definitely need to be used by riders who are comfortable with their wrapping skills as they are easier to over tighten than polos, but personally, I prefer stretch bandages as I find they wrap nicer and trap less heat than a fleece polo, which was one of my biggest issues in using other therapy products like the Back On Track polo wraps. I also find that bandages with more elasticity give far better compression support than polo wraps do, so they’ve become my preferred material for bandaging legs.

Milo, the horse that I got the bandages for, tends to have fill in his leg where his injury was. The injury is healed but left some fluid in the leg, like a windpuff. I like using bandages for hard work to compress this and help bring it down. With the ceramic infrared technology types like BOT, I found the swelling got worse so I sought out to find something that would bring it down and Incrediwear delivered. I was very impressed when I took them off after the first ride in them, cool and tight legs with minimal sweat under the bandages and a definitive difference in the “windpuff” in Milo’s leg. The next time I used them, I decided to try the icing technique by cold hosing the bandages after my ride before I removed them. I was fascinated by how cold the bandages actually got and how long they stayed cool for. This was an extremely easy and convenient way for me to do cold water therapy on my horse without having to lug my ice boots out from the house or stand there holding a hose against the leg. The convenience factor alone sold me on these bandages, let alone the major differences I noticed in my horses legs.

I also got a chance to try the compression hoof socks and really like these for putting under jump boots when I am not wrapping, they’re also good for wearing in the crossties or while being groomed and a lot easier to put on than the bandages. These would be a good alternative for riders who are not comfortable wrapping as they provide similar compression support and can easily go under protective boots. They don’t provide the same protection as wraps, but being able to put them under boots solves that issue. Incrediwear is a brand that has clearly thought through the products they put out and strives to make them suitable for all types of riders. Their technology is especially good for use in the summer or in hotter climates as unlike ceramic technologies, they don’t work based on reflecting body heat and thereby increasing heat in legs, something that contributes to more injuries and something I strive to avoid.

I’m very excited to have something that I can use year round in all climates and also use for ice boots conveniently at home and at shows. Incrediwear offers a lot of testimonials and studies on their sites, but despite this, I was skeptical because of the other therapy products I used increasing the fill in my horse’s legs. Incrediwear blew me away and left me with a very firm preference in the brand I will continue to shop with for therapy products. Thank you for introducing me to your brand, I really appreciate it and am ecstatic to see the difference in my horse’s legs!

“Dressing for Success” is Relative

Dressing for… success

Dressing for… success


One of the most dividing aspects of the horse world is also the silliest: outfits. Yes, that’s right, what you wear to go play with 1000 lb dirt beasts is apparently a necessary topic of conversation and a defining characteristic of a rider. Over the years I’ve been online, I’ve seen this a lot on personal blogs, various social platforms and most unfortunately, mainstream equestrian news sources, thus perpetuating the problematic idea that you’re automatically less of an equestrian or should be taken less seriously just because you do not opt for a more polished look at the barn.

None of these comments or articles really stress safety. They’re not typically about wearing helmets, wearing a heel when riding and otherwise appropriate attire around the farm. Quite literally, they’re about who is tucking their shirt in. Who changes into shorts after riding on a hot day (apparently you shouldn’t, guess I’ll just get heat stroke as a heat sensitive person because if you wear shorts to the barn apparently you’ll be viewed as less trustworthy than someone in breeches and a Gucci belt). Oh, and of course, then there is the age old justification of “what if a big name trainer walks into your barn right then?” Which frankly, is a hilarious attempt at trying to justify what is a judgmental and elitist stance and one of the most out of touch claims I’ve ever heard. It singlehandedly proves how far removed these people are from the average horse barn and what most equestrians are dealing with.

How many of you guys actually have big name trainers walking into your barn unannounced? I bet those of you who do account for the 1% and I would still be shocked if they were walking in and out announced on any given day but with that said, I’d assume your barn would have a different dress code than the vast majority because of it. A big name trainer walking into most peoples farms unannounced is not a reality, so why make people feel they need to uphold a certain ideal for something that isn’t even going to happen? If you’re attending clinics or shows, yes, attire is more important and you should dress out of respect for your clinician. This still doesn’t mean you need expensive things but you should typically dress more polished than you would in schooling. But, in schooling at home, where most people are at private barns or public lesson barns that don’t just invite outside trainers in unannounced? Wear whatever is safe to ride in, whatever you’re comfortable in. If your barn has a dress code, then obviously follow it but you should also have the tact to realize that your reality isn’t everybody’s.

People really need to think before they publish these weird, guilt trippy articles because when you put them on mainstream platforms, you’re putting them out there for everyone including the ambitious lesson kids who excitedly show up for their once a week lesson and like do not dress in the manner stressed in these articles. In reading them, they’re probably made to feel like less of a rider than those who “look the part” even when “the part” is relative. On top of this, we fail to consider people with sensory issues, with body image issues and other personal issues that are, quite frankly, none of our business, that may affect whether or not they want to wear fitted, tucked in shirts with a belt. Provided what they are wearing is safe to ride a horse in, why do we care?

The focus on aesthetics is something so prevalent in the horse world that often times its talked about more than important things like horsemanship and rider conduct. Why are we more worried about what we are wearing “if a big name trainer walks in” rather than what we are doing? You could be wearing the finest equestrian brands and looked like you walked straight off an equestrian fashion shoot but if you’re bullying your horse, practicing poor horsemanship or riding in an abusive manner, that should all reflect more poorly on you than your outfit and any big trainer worth an ounce of respect should be more taken aback by that conduct than fashion.

another outfit AT THE BARN… MORE POLISHED.. BECAUSE I FELT LIKE IT,

another outfit AT THE BARN… MORE POLISHED.. BECAUSE I FELT LIKE IT,

The sport is changing. Not everyone who rides is in it to show. Many people ride for the simple enjoyment of horses and they seem to have the right formula because it’s about the enjoyment of the horse for them, NOT what others are wearing or other incredibly shallow viewpoints. I think a lot of riders on the circuit could take a page out of the pleasure riders’ book and stop being so hyper focused on aesthetics and making blanket statements about what’s right to wear to the barn as though everyone is living in the same reality as them. Also, people not yet in the sport seeing this ridiculous opinions on what to wear are a lot more likely to feel pushed away and out of touch with what they “need” to be to be apart of equestrianism. They’re the very same people who often reach out to me, saying that they feel like less of an equestrian because they don’t own a horse, don’t dress like this, don’t do this, don’t do that. Or, people who want to ride but are afraid to because of the mindsets they witness. They feel like it’s too late to start because “everyone is better than them”. They’re not contacting the people who push the idea you need to look like a beauty queen at the barn because they’re not comfortable confiding in you.

So, what’s right to wear to the barn for your ride? Boots with a heel, a shirt of some sort (probably not best to go half naked), a helmet (please and thank you) and riding pants if you don’t want to destroy your legs from saddle rubs. That’s it, that’s the bare minimum. If you want to wear nice breeches, a sun shirt and tuck your shirt in, all the power to you. If you want to wear makeup because it makes you feel good, all the power to you. If you don’t want to wear make up because you’ll be getting dirty and sweating it off, all the power to you. If people judge you because you look like you’re “untidy” after working outside in the dirt with horses all day, I’ll judge those people a lot harder for expecting anyone putting in work with farm animals to stay immaculate with no hair out of place because that is so ridiculously unrealistic.

And if the barn you choose to ride at has a dress code, obviously follow it but don’t enforce it on other people without the same expectations as you. If you’re going to write and put things out on line for the masses, I think we have a responsibility to realize how what we say could be taken and how elitist the dress code mindset of so many equestrians is… we really shouldn’t be making people feel poorly or openly admitting to judging people’s horse expertise based off what they wear. Stress safe outfits and safe footwear around the barn but beyond that it’s merely personal preference, not a right or wrong.

Also, for the record, most experienced horse people walking into a new barn the first time are probably a lot more focused on the care and maintenance of the horses, how they’re being handled and the overall setup of the barn for the horses… not what the people at the barn are wearing. And if they’re really more concerned about outfits than if horses are getting treated well and their basic needs met, then we are failing our horses and outfits are still the least of our issues.

I have never once felt shamed or left out for wearing “polished” outfits to the barn. It doesn’t happen anywhere near to the same extent that we shame and guilt trip the people who do not do that. People are not out there in masses making fun of those who dress nice at the barn because frankly, those with money riding at fancy barns that tend to promote these ideas are out numbering those who aren’t. You aren’t a minority for dressing nice, don’t act like one, especially if the views you perpetuate (ie: if you don’t dress like me, you look bad and are less trustworthy to judge at face value as a horse person) are so very damaging to the other side that already has enough barriers to overcome in the horse world.

Wear what you are comfortable and feel good in. Wear what is safe. It is totally okay to have different ambitions than others and to take a less serious approach to barn attire or even if you do have the same ambitions but ride at a barn that doesn’t require fancy dress, do YOU! You will ride just as well in jeans and a t shirt as you will in a sun shirt and breeches, trust me, I’ve done it. I also feed my horses in slippers and pajamas and it’s never affected how I care for them in comparison to when I “dress nice”. Those whose respect you actually want to earn should understand outfits and aesthetics aren’t the be all and end all and at the end of the day, we’re working at a barn with dirty farm animals so it’s a little silly to always expect beautiful, clean dress if you’re doing work with farm animals. And if you can stay clean, beautiful and polished all day when working with numerous horses, then you’re a superhero and all the power to you to make your own decisions in attire at the barn.

Finding Your Place as a Professional in the Horse World

Photo by Quinn Saunders.

Photo by Quinn Saunders.

Growing up in the horse world, I more or less seemed to change my goals like a chameleon to suit whatever I believed the popular opinion to be. From a very young age, I always knew that I wanted to work with horses and that I wanted to be a trainer, but until recently, I never quite realized how broad of a definition “horse trainer” truly is. Being on social media and sharing my riding definitely skewed my opinion of what it meant to be a professional in the horse industry. It is hard to see so many riders showing Grand Prix on 6 figure horses, riding in the Olympics and living the “A-Circuit lifestyle” without starting to believe that is the norm in the industry and that their lives are what have earned the term “professional”.

So, because of this, I started to feed into the idea that I had Olympic goals and was working towards the end goal of being a rider who would bear the name of my country and compete at the highest level. I was working towards a goal that in reality, I didn’t even like. Because, let’s face it, is a life of travelling and constant horse showing all over the world really all that desirable for a person who is a homebody introvert and also happens to be absolutely terrified on flying on airplanes? Probably not. One horse show weekend, let alone weeks upon weeks of showing, is exhausting enough for me and I have to recharge for a little while after before dedicating more time into showing. I know now that if I’d continued to pursue that manufactured goal, one that came from watching other riders and trying to model my goals after them, I would have certainly burnt out. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE showing, but the lifestyle of showing the circuit and never being home simply isn’t one I could reasonably live long term.

Social media pushes the idea that the top riders on the circuit are what it means to be professional in the horse world, when in reality, the term professional is really only applied to anyone who earns an income from working with horses and isn’t the prestigious title some people make it out to be. On top of that, there are varying types of professionals who hold the title of “horse trainer” and all of them play a vital role in the horse industry. If we didn’t have the professionals who focus on teaching young and up and coming riders in lieu of showing in the Olympics themselves, we would not have a younger generation to start excelling on a worldwide scale. The professionals who build riders up from the ground and teach them a love for horses and a respect for the sport are an essential part of laying the foundation of this sport and their work shouldn’t be written off as nothing just because their names aren’t in the spotlight. People who open their hearts and their barns to inexperienced riders with a hunger for horse knowledge are the first component to producing the riders who we grow to admire as Olympians some day.

Similarly, people who work with problem horses or starting unbroke horses under saddle are working to create the future generation of show horses, or, if the horses they are working with aren’t quite show caliber in the Olympic sense, they help to limit the amount of wastage of horses and help to create rideable mounts who may go on to be lesson horses or lower level show horses to help ambitious riders climb the ladder of the horse show world. People who dedicate their time to laying the foundation for riding horses are assisting riders who lack the experience to do it themselves and supplying horses with the vital education and good start that they require to have a long and successful career in the horse show world. Generally speaking, the world class riders you hear about in the news are not doing as much or any of this foundational work in breaking horses to ride, taking on problem horses or rescue cases and that doesn’t lessen the value of what they are doing but it shows that there is value in all aspects of riding and work as a professional.

I’ve realized now that my goals aren’t really in relation to the prestige of showing. I love showing and would love to move up the levels, but I’m not really in a rush and I would much prefer to be moving up on horses who I’ve trained myself and whose progress I’m extremely invested in. Working with rescues and watching horses change from “crazy or “feral” and otherwise undesirable horses into mounts that can pack children around or start winning ribbons in their new homes is something that is so rewarding and I love it. I am passionate about changing the outlook on both Thoroughbreds and rescue horses in the A circuit show world and much of my work is about promoting the abilities of these horses that may otherwise be viewed as underdogs. On top of this, my breaking and training services for clients are valuable because I get to watch my clients’ eyes light up when they go from having an unrideable horse to one that they can enjoy themselves and ride safely. I know my work is making a difference and while I still have some people online occasionally scoff at my referring to myself as a professional because they don’t believe I’ve jumped high enough, I feel like I’ve earned it and I’m proud of the work I do now because I’ve realized that there is so much more to riding and the horse world than showing big classes and taking major titles. We need professionals taking roles like mine. We need the trainers who run lesson barns and predominately work with beginners. We need all aspects of professional trainers and coaches because they all take on a different role in creating the perfect competition horse or rider or, perhaps, they simply make a major difference for horses and riders who aren’t focused on achieving greatness in the show ring.

So, to all of you who have the goal of working with horses, keep in mind that there is a great level of diversity in the jobs that you can work as a professional. You don’t need to be on the Olympic team to be a professional or to hold value in the horse world and it is perfectly fine if you do not have high level showing goals because there is so much more you can do in the industry aside from showing. Don’t compare yourself to riders living a different life than you and most certainly, do not model your goals off of someone else’s. Think about what YOU truly want to do and work towards that while remaining flexible to different possibilities, because like me, you may find you were wrong about what you thought you’d enjoy.

I may never ride for Team Canada or get to Grand Prix level, but regardless of what happens in my future, I know that I still have value as a professional and that I’m making a difference. I love what I do and am so fortunate to have the opportunity to work with so many amazing horses and people. My work with rescue horses in particular has been really eye opening to me in deciding what route I want to go as a professional. I am excited for my future and my career goals are ever changing as I gain more experience and get offered more opportunities.

Don’t base your worth off of what someone else is doing with their life. We all have our own unique skills and are all on a different path through life, we cannot really compare experiences. Different challenges will arise on your path through life, I’m sure, but don’t be deterred if you’re truly passionate about being apart of the horse world. There is a great wealth of information to be learned and as you make your way through the industry in different facets, you’ll discover where you fit in.

Ignore the Hecklers, Be the Dictator of Your Own Journey

My Arabian, Farley and I after moving barns. I used to think riding without a helmet was cool, now I think not having brain damage is cool.

My Arabian, Farley and I after moving barns. I used to think riding without a helmet was cool, now I think not having brain damage is cool.

Around 8 years ago, I was an insecure 15 year old trying to find my place in the world. This resulted in me finding myself in the midst of a mean girls group battle in high school, with much of the bullying directed at my best friend and subsequently, myself. On top of this, I made the brilliant decision to date a Class A Jerkface and this resulted in a rather toxic relationship, with blame being laid on me when he cheated on me. A+ decision making, I know. This particular year in high school took such a toll on my mental health that I stopped going to the barn and almost completely lost my passion for horses. I wanted to sell my horse and get out of riding at one point but first decided to move him to a lower key barn where the focus was just on riding and having fun. This brought my passion back. The droning of riding alone, only on the flat and not really going for trail rides at the old barn had pushed me away from riding, being able to focus only on riding for fun, riding with friends and doing things like swapping horses or just galloping around the fields in the back took all pressure off of riding, made a friendly and family-like atmosphere and in turn, piqued my interest in horses again.

It was around this time that I joined equine social media, first on Tumblr. The horse community on Tumblr was and is smaller than it is on Instagram and Facebook, but the ability to easily send anonymous messages made it seem an awful lot larger. I posted everything on Tumblr, no matter how cringey. At the time, I was enjoying being a backyard rider and taking a break from showing, living the relaxed life. At first, the hate that I was subjected to revolved around my equitation, what I wore and the fact that I was a “bobo” (the ever so favourite word for elitist equestrians whose self importance some how leads them to being obsessed with what complete strangers wear. Must be boring. Can’t relate). Then, eventually, as my initial ambitions with regards to training professionally became known, the mean comments zeroed in on the fact that I didn’t have what it takes to be a pro and that I would never amount to anything. My career goals changed as a result. The dream of being a horse trainer, something I’d wanted from the time I was a toddler, something that if you look back at all of my elementary school projects remained consistently the same, changed. I went from wanting to be a horse trainer to believing I would go to university and get my doctorate and become a psychologist. While psychology does still interest me, it is a little laughable that I thought my lazy and disorganized self had the drive to get a doctorate degree. I do still intend on finishing my degree, but my university focuses have shifted. Anyways, back on subject.

I allowed complete and utter strangers to make me question myself and question my desires and ultimately, my career path. I almost gave up on what was a lifelong goal because of them and that is very sad. Ultimately, my desire to train came back when I adopted Milo, but with attaining Milo, I was subjected to new levels of online bullying. I was told “he’s ugly” or “he’s too skinny” or “he will never amount to anything” or “you don’t have the talent to train him” and then it was “you’re too big for him” and “he’s never going to look like a show horse” , And, lastly, when I DNA tested him and had the audacity to believe he could be part some type of Warmblood when the results came back entirely as different types of WB: “He can’t be a warmblood”, “Not fancy enough to be a warmblood” and “you’re stupid for even thinking he is a warmblood” and “Clearly, you just want your grade rescue to be fancier than he is”. Ironically, none of these concerns arose all of those months of me referring to him as a Thoroughbred prior to the DNA testing, despite Thoroughbreds having a far more closed registry than any Warmblood registry. I suppose, these very types of people felt some sort of ownership towards the term “Warmblood” and viewed it as an outrage to call a grade horse a warmblood. Funnily enough, nowadays, most people assume Milo is warmblood. He has filled out beautifully and doesn’t look even remotely like the horse he arrived as. I’ve had upper level professionals stop us to ask what his breeding is, clearly, because at face value, you cannot assume a horse is grade. So, I suppose this is a tale of how people who were so desperate to be nasty over something that literally did not change anything other than how I referred to his breeding (still grade, down, girls) had the inability to see how muscle and growth may change a neglected horse and their type.

The thing is, I never cared about what breed Milo was. To me, the DNA test was just a fun thing to do and the results surprised me. Nowadays, the results really don’t surprise me with how Milo looks but back then, they did because we were so sure he was Thoroughbred and only that. I adopted a grade horse, knowing he was grade and knowing we’d never had any history on his breeding. To me, he was a $400 horse I took a chance on that has exceeded my every expectation, but, to them, it was just a chance to hurt me and try to dampen my excitement for potentially getting SOME semblance of info on his breeding background. At the end of the day, I ask you, why does it matter? A grade horse is a grade horse and unless a horse is being sold as an entirely different breed type, why do we care what type someone refers to their horse as? Anyways, now, this is a bit of a laugh because Milo is thicker than a bowl of oatmeal and no longer the stringbean these people assumed could only be applicable to thoroughbreds (please, just feed and work your Thoroughbreds and you’ll realize they aren’t all noodle necks).

Anyways, the hate parade with Milo extended far past his breed type. My worst experience online in terms of bullying occurred when Milo started jumping in his 4y/o year. I posted a photo of him jumping a cross rail, yes, a cross rail, and the internet imploded. I was told he would be retired at 4 because of my jumping him lightly over cross rails once a week or once every two weeks. I was told I was going to ruin him, that he would be dead lame. I was told I was selfish, that I was rushing him. For over four months, I logged on everyday to tons of messages berating me and blasting me as a trainer and rider. Anonymity doesn’t always mean you’re anonymous. While the messages came through as anonymous, I knew the group of people behind them and they were relentless. Sending messages to me, making posts about me on their pages, sharing my photos with mean remarks. All over a CROSS RAIL. When other people commonly were showing the young horse classes with their 4y/os and SHOWING .90m and higher. When these very people had FRIENDS who were showing their 4y/os higher than I EVER schooled Milo in his 4 year old year. They never mentioned their friends being in the wrong, in fact, they supported them. This type of behaviour exemplifies the phenomenon of bullying online. It often isn’t even about the actions of the person they’re bullying, it is literally just about trying to hurt someone. They didn’t care about Milo or his soundness or their outrage would extend within their group of friends and the people they liked. They merely wanted to hurt me in particular. The bullying got so bad that I stopped posting on Tumblr for quite some time. I even told my mom about it, something I rarely did at this point in my life.

The infamous cross rail photo that sparked 4 months of bullying.

The infamous cross rail photo that sparked 4 months of bullying.

The hurt I experienced online caused me to lash out at people in my life because I was just so anxious. I would be mean to my mom after reading particularly hurtful messages because I was so anxious, so on edge. I would lay awake in bed, refreshing my inbox, terrified of more messages coming through but not wanting to wake up in the morning to hundreds of them. I lost sleep, I would get sick to my stomach at times from the anxiety. But, at the end of the day, I truly did not believe I was wronging my horse. I just couldn’t figure out why these people hated me so much. Why they were willing to excuse the very same behaviour in others but would zero in on me daily for months.

Now, I get it. I was a scapegoat for whatever problems were going on in their own life. I still am a scapegoat to many. Any time something good happens in my life, more nasty comments flood in. I bought a trailer back in the winter and guess what, more comments flooded in. My beautiful colt, Banksy, was born and more hateful comments flooded in. Nowadays, the lack of anonymity and ability to send the same anonymous messages as Tumblr allowed does affect the tone of such comments, however, they still come in. The fact that there is such a direct link between my personal “successes” or exciting events and nasty comments speaks volumes about the intentions behind these comments. Often, people will try to frame their negativity as being “constructive” but the fact of the matter is that constructive criticism always serves the purpose of helping someone achieve success, not to demoralize them. Very rarely is such criticism actually constructive. Also, at the end of the day, if we do not want to be part of someone’s success and are just disdained with their character, why go out of our way to interact? Participating in such negativity sets a precedent for your behaviour and if you continuously take part in being mean to others, I promise you that you won’t feel better about yourself. It will put a cloud over your daily life and thoughts and constantly fill you with unhappiness.

We all have mean spirited thoughts sometimes but how we handle said thoughts says a lot about our character. Most of the time, these thoughts do not need to be voiced and if they are, why voice them to the person they’re directed at? What purpose does this serve other than to hurt? Why voice them publicly? If you want to rant, take it to private chats with your friends. That way, no one is hurt and you get to get whatever it is off your chest. The herd mentality of being able to blast people online with all of your buddies following suit results in an incredibly gross level of toxic behaviour. It pushes those affected to consider hurting themselves, to let go of lifelong dreams, to suffer from poor mental health. I would like to think that even the worst bullies would never want their targets to be suicidal, but this is a very real risk that is taken any time people choose to be mean spirited online, particularly when it becomes a ritualistic behaviour rather than a one off comment.

23 years old, declared pro with my two show horses.

23 years old, declared pro with my two show horses.

These people online tried to constantly remind me of the fact that I would “never” make it as a professional. A few years ago, I might have believed them. If you’d asked me even three years ago if I’d be in the position of having my own truck and trailer, bought by myself with money earned by training professionally, I’d say hell no. But, that’s my reality now. If you’d asked me five years ago if I thought I’d have the business I do within my first few years of declaring pro status, I would say no. But, here I am with numerous client horses in on commission and numerous horses in training. I have more business than I can handle at times and am at the point where I haven’t even needed to advertise my services because my references and clients do it well enough for me. I was told that this would never happen, that I could never do this… All by people who had never even met me. And, look, I did it. I almost didn’t because of them, how awful would that have been? To give up a dream that I believe has allowed me to make a difference, that has pushed me to rescue horses and promote rescue in a manner I was unable to do before, all because of some vindictive people.

So, I guess I’m here to say, do not let mean people dictate who you are. You know your character. You know your goals. Strangers online don’t and honestly, their opinions of you matter so little compared to those you know in person. Look at your personal connections and those who love and respect you. Are they proud of the person you are? That’s all that matters. Value their opinions if they ever tell you you’ve lost who you are, because they actually know who YOU are. No one merely watching you from the comfort of their phone or laptop will know you true character in the same way. It is so incredibly easy to judge others at face value and make presumptions, it’s a lot harder to get to know someone and give them a chance.

Social media allows us some form of anonymity even without anonymous features in messages. It is a lot more comfortable to degrade people from behind a screen than it is face to face. I don’t believe any of these people who’ve hurt me in the past would actually be able to walk up to me at a show and say what they’ve said to me because deep down, they know it is socially unacceptable. It is alarming to realize that the people who spent so much time trying to hurt me were adults, in their mid to late twenties. Some people closer to my age, but most people far older. I am glad that I went through that, however, as it has made me more compassionate and helped me to realize the type of person I want to be. I never want to cause anyone that level of pain. I also want people to realize that they aren’t alone when they’re being bullied, whether it be in the horse world or not, online or in person. I know what it feels like to feel small. I know the clammy hands, thumping heart and sweating that comes with having to walk by someone who is out to hurt you or when you get that message notification and just know it is going to be something nasty. I know how it feels to put a brave face on and pretend you’re unaffected when the months of mistreatment are starting to wear on you. I get it.

I’m here to tell you that you aren’t alone and that you need to keep your head up. Don’t let unhappy people rob you of your happiness. Don’t let them make you like them. Their inability to be happy and their desire to tear others down to fill the holes inside them is their problem, not yours. Surround yourself with people who genuinely value you as a person and care about your success. People who will tell you when you’ve lost yourself because they actually know who the real you is. People who will actually be constructive in their criticism because they truly want to see the best version of you. Those who will stand beside you in your personal growth instead of fighting against you. These are the people who will help you be the best you can be. A good support group is worth its weight in gold and as someone who has been through their fair share of bullying, I’m here to say that I’m here as a force to be reckoned with if anyone screws with you. I have zero tolerance for bullying and I’m sick and tired of seeing it in the horse community along with all of the justifications of “that’s just how horse people are” because it’s simply untrue. If someone is unkind, that’s on them, not the community. If you enable them by saying that’s the way our world is, all you’re doing is allowing it to be acceptable. The horse world doesn’t have to be toxic. We need to stop putting up with such mistreatment, it isn’t acceptable to see students bullying each other, trainers bullying their students or riders bullying strangers online. We cannot allow it to be viewed as normal.

My goal as a professional is to create a healthy environment where people have respect for others and understand that riding is a sport of growth. We all start somewhere and we all struggle with different things in terms of technique and overall learning. We need to be compassionate and we need to use education to in disagreements, rather than degrading each other. It’s unreasonable to expect all horse people to agree with each other but we do have the capacity to have healthy discourse, rather than running around acting like rabid animals who have no filter.

So, to you reading this, you deserve respect. You deserve kindness and the ability to set your own goals without meeting hatred for them. Do not accept less than what you deserve and please, always remember that others’ negative treatment of you says a lot more about them than it does you. I’ve been on social media a long time, I’ve watched the gang mentality of bullying others and jealousy driven mean comments. They’re rampant in the community when they shouldn’t be and we largely accept it by assuming that it’s just the way horse people act. So, let’s change what we view as an acceptable way to act. Demand more respect, stay firm in your journey and don’t let people deter you from your goals, especially when they’re on the fringes of your life and not there with you during your successes. They’re irrelevant to you and your journey, don’t let their words hold any meaning. You can do this, you’ve got this.

Instant Results Aren't Always Good Results

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2015-2019

Our level of patience with horses is often times far less than it should be. We expect the immediacy of results or we assume that said results are unattainable. That our horse is unfixable or untalented or simply incapable of whatever our initial visions were in our partnership. While sometimes this may be true, we often write off a lot of things as being the impossible without giving them enough of a chance. We are quick to take shortcuts and whatever we believe will produce the fastest result, not the best one. As a result, horses who simply cannot keep up with the pace of what they’re being asked end up falling through the cracks. They become the fried horses, the crazy ones, the lame ones or horses that are deemed unfit for whatever their initial discipline goals are. Maybe, if they’re lucky, they’ll be picked up by someone willing to give them a fair chance, to roll back the speed and move at their pace. Who knows. Regardless, the horse world is often so fast paced with such ambitious goals that we refuse to acknowledge the limits of patience and perseverance.

I am guilty of this. 5 years ago, I adopted a skinny, ill mannered and stubborn 2 year old gelding from the BCSPCA. When I was initially horse shopping, I was looking for an older project who I could get going to prep as a jumper pretty much immediately, but something about this horse called to me and the rest is history. Initially when adopting Milo, I had no idea what I was in for, what to expect. What the challenges of taking on a “damaged horse” who had experienced some level of trauma could be. This caused me a lot of despair over the last 5 years, however, less recently nowadays. I was constantly hitting training hurdles, hurdles in his muscle development and overall looks. I would look at him as a 2 and 3 year old and tell myself that he would always have a pencil neck. That he would never fill out or grow tall enough for me to look “normal” on him or to fit in with other show horses who I deemed to be fancier. I thought he would “never” get over certain behavioural issues or problems in training.

Milo in his 3y/o winter

Milo in his 3y/o winter

As a green broke 3 year old, the common issue was his reactivity. The wind would blow once, the temperature would drop cooler, the weather would change and he would act like someone had lit a firecracker under him. Trotting normally one second, airborne the next. As a 4 year old, the next problems to arise were his explosiveness at shows. Our warm ups would consist of levade, capriole and various other moves that can only be described as a mixture of airs above the ground and the moves the broncs put on at the Calgary Stampede. No, lunging didn’t seem to help. It just got him warmed up. Primed and flexible to give Spirit: The Stallion of the Cimarron a run for his money. I don’t think he every actually wanted to throw me… Most of the time. If I’d turned him loose, he would’ve done the very same things. He continues to do the very same things today, though, predominately on his own time while out in the field. The fact of the matter is that Milo was overstimulated at shows and needed to sort out his brain moving a mile a minute by utilizing various athletic maneuvers. Many suggested getting after him for his “misbehaviour” as though hitting him and disciplining him would make him relax. I took the route of moving him forward, doing lots of circles, transitions and other things that I thought would distract him and working him through it.

2017-2019

2017-2019

The next issue, also taking place in the 4 year old year but extending far beyond that was his nervousness off property over fences. Milo once stopped at every single cross rail in a course at a show. Despite jumping a great deal of cross rails at home with the utmost enthusiasm. Next, when he DID start jumping the cross rails at shows, he would pull off his entire dictionary’s worth of athletic maneuvers between said jumps. The refusals and bronc fits after the jumps made me have to be a very defensive but adaptable rider to get him schooling off property quietly and less reactive to fences. In his 5 year old year, Milo broke my hand from broncing so hard that he jammed my knuckles into his neck after he got excited during warm up at a show. It started raining. In the temperate rainforest he’s lived in his whole life. It was riveting and deserved celebration, obviously. At 5, we still struggled to get around courses without stopping out. Any new coloured jump, with any new design (if the stripes moved even 6 inches to the left, we had a problem), any jump that “looked” at him the wrong way, he had to stop to inspect it. Sometimes, the scarier fences were A-okay and the plain white or grey ones were a massive issue. Who knew, it’s like he pulled a random card out of a deck to choose what jump to have an issue with that day.

At home, we also had struggles maintaining a consistent contact because Milo had to turn his whole head to look at every little movement and sound. Oh, the horse next door took a bite of a single blade of grass? Better look at it. Oh, wow, look at that rock on the ground, how neat. Oh, hey, a bird! No, he wasn’t what I would call spooky or nervous, he just seemed to be utterly incapable of focusing, like a kid on a sugar high. I kept comparing him to other people’s horses and despairing. I wanted him to have a better top line, a thicker neck, a more consistent contact. Better transitions. A less flailing head. I told myself that it seemed like this would NEVER happen.


Flash forward a few years, including about 8 months of healing and slowly rehabbing a minor injury at the end of his 5 year old year, and we are finally beginning to get over much of these issues that I experienced over the years. There were more issues than I could possibly describe in a singular article and issues we still do experience today, but this piece serves the purpose of reflecting on the problems that immediately come to mind as things that wore on me for a lengthy period of time. Things I felt wouldn’t get better fast enough. That we would always struggle with. Things that made me embarrassed of the horse I loved or made me feel inadequate when I shared our progress.


2015-2019

2015-2019

At 7 years old, Milo finally seems to be maturing. He’s most of the way through a show season with a record low of bucks and bronc fits during warm up. He warms up in some of the most stressful, high energy show situations without spooking at the various loud and distracting things he is exposed to. He can be stabled at shows without screaming and trying to climb over the walls of his stall to see his neighbours. He no longer gallops in and out of his stall doors, in fear of catching a hip (because running through recklessly to risk demolishing a hip is the only correct solution aside from planting one’s feet and refusing to enter or leave the stall). Most shockingly, he is refusing less. For his 5 and 6 year old years, we were mostly stuck in the 2’6” ring. I attempted to take him into 2’9” a few times as a 6 year old and it didn’t really go well at all. At the time, I compared him to other horses, many of which can easily make that move up or more in a single season. But, he wasn’t ready. Looking back, if I’d been more patient and less focused on moving on a schedule like “the other horses” were, we probably would’ve actually progressed quicker because I would’ve been going on HIS schedule, not other horses’. We recently started competing in the 3’ or .90m jumpers. Milo won and placed top 3 at his first Gold shows at this height this summer, second Gold (or A rated) show ever. His first one, we only got through 2 classes before stopping out in the rest of them (this was in the 2’6” ring). He also went to his first show at a fair this summer, being exposed to cows, llamas, pigs as well as various loud rides, concerts and large crowds of people. He won 5 out of 6 classes, competing at the 3’ height and paid for the entire show and more with his winnings. Most recently, Milo attended the PNE fair, show in the 1m jumpers, and while this didn’t go quite as well because we did have some refusals, one of which resulted in us being buzzed out of the class, he was still far removed from the horse he used to be. Milo had an excellent warm up in the meters, 5th in his first class with 1 refusal (he refuses to poop on the go… still.. one thing we haven’t fixed. Maybe 10 years from now when I write a blog post from my spaceship we will have overcome this hurdle). Now, for many, a refusal in a class would be a letdown. But, for Milo, it is growth. All of our shows in previous years that had refusals would result in us being excused from the class because he would not just stop once, he would continue to stop at the same fence or the one after. Now, he will stop and will go the second time without issue when I ask him, which is a major change in his trust in me. Anyways, the rest of the show went on with the occasional refusal or poop induced refusal, but always the offer to jump again without question if I asked. His final class was phenomenal, for him, considering how tired he was and some of the challenges earlier in the show, but alas, I went off course and robbed him of his speedy round and likely decent placing. BUT- he didn’t let me down. He gave me his all and while some moments of this show were frustrating, I’m amazed by how much he has grown up and how much he tries for me.

July 2019 in the .90m ring

July 2019 in the .90m ring

While we still struggle with consistent lead changes on course, Milo now offers me semi contained changes at home. While we may have the occasional refusal for me now, Milo is willing to try for me even if he is scared or thrown off his game for whatever reason. While he still may have some exuberance that people may view as undesirable, Milo can be ridden bridleless virtually anywhere, trail ride alone and cope with many spooky events with sanity that lots of other horses couldn’t handle. While we still may lose marks for nervous tension at dressage shows, Milo is consistent and supple in contact, especially at home, and is starting to look like the well broke horse that I always wished that he was years ago.

I still have frustrations, I still have doubts sometimes but at the end of the day, I have hope and the desire to keep trying to make the best horse I can out of a horse who has taught me more than I could possibly imagine. I am so incredibly glad that he trained me and forced me how to figure out his sensitive nature and work with it instead of trying to break it and force it to fit my mold. It has made me a better trainer and a more empathetic rider. Most of all, it has given me hope when working with horses viewed as difficult or as the underdog. It has made me realize that even if a horse isn’t initially visually appealing or pleasant to ride, there are often positive things that you can see through the cracks and if you really work hard to make the best of the horse, more and more light will start to shine through the cracks and maybe, just maybe, you’ll realize that the horse you thought was a mediocre find is really a diamond in the rough.









"The Bit is Only as Harsh as the Hands" Sounds fake, but ok

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In the pursuit of learning and bettering myself as a rider, I’ve made significant changes over the last several years with regards to the manner in which I handle horses. As I move away from the lazier aspects of training and handling from years past, my eyes have become more “open” and I’ve become more aware to mistakes I’ve made as well as people making what I’d personally view as mistakes. I used to be lazy, focused on moving forward and hitting the end goal as fast as possible with my horses. I wanted to cut corners but still expected a great result. When my horses got fast or heavy, I’d look into bitting up or adding more equipment instead of appropriately training them. Instead of being aware of the holes in training, I’d blame their fence rushing issues on their “excitement” or “love” for jumping and would throw on bits that gave me the illusion of more control instead of fixing their less than stellar dressage foundations. I’m embarrassed of how I used to bring up my OTTBs. I did a bad job. I didn’t do them justice while I was still learning about the Thoroughbred horse post racing career. On top of this, I also used to disallow my horses adequate turnout and then would wonder why they always wanted to spook, bolt and be silly during rides. All of these behaviours were avoidable, easily fixable. If I’d just done things differently, but I didn’t and that is a mistake I now have to own and learn from.

To some extent, yes, I’ve gotten better at choosing prospects but them turning out better, with nicer muscle tone and healthier weights is due to my growth as a horse person. I feed them better. I ride them better. As a result, they build top lines and lose their upside down necks. The horses haven’t become easier than the ones I’d had in years past, they’re just being brought up better and as such, appear easier. The horses I had 7+ years ago were saints for dealing with my subpar training skills and lack of patience and if I had them now, I’d do better by them.

Anyways, let’s get to the point I’m trying to make. I just had to roast myself a little first to make it clear that I’m criticizing the way I used to do things and not just merely pointing fingers. The major difference in my horses has been eye opening to me in how much these things actually MATTER and how much they benefit the horses. Bitting choices, for one, are a bone I have to pick. Majorly. Now that I work with currently racing Thoroughbreds as well as retired ones, I simply cannot get on board with the people who pull horses off the track, start them with little flatwork foundation, throw them over fences as soon as humanly possible and then wonder why they rush. Then, they blame the horse, blame the racing industry and slap on a bigger bit to get their horse to stop running through the bridle. A bandaid fix. This is seen outside of OTTBs, of course, but I wanted to reference the Thoroughbreds first to point out the stark difference in bitting options on and off of the track. Thoroughbreds are trained to take a hold of the bit on the racetrack, which is why a good flatwork foundation is imperative before introducing jumps because it is in their nature to get heavy and be rushy, since they were trained to RACE. With that said, if I walked up to my racing trainer with a double twisted wire gag that I’ve seen used in the jumper ring and suggested we put it on, she would not be on board. Why? Because they don’t really view bit changes as a fix in the same way we do in other disciplines. Even using a noseband is a bit of a big deal and they’d most certainly NOT want to pair a regular noseband, let alone a flash or drop noseband, with an exceedingly harsh bit. Why? Because they realize it’s harsh.

In show disciplines, I see a lot of complacency. People advocating for pretty ridiculous bitting set ups under the guise of bits only being as harsh as the hands. Sure, if you have great hands, you’ll be less harsh but at the end of the day, people need to be aware of why harsher bits work the way they do. The fact of the matter is that when you add a more abrasive mouthpiece or more leverage, the horse is forced to soften and respond quicker because the consequence is far greater than they don’t. This is something to consider even more so in English disciplines than western ones since we’re holding a more direct contact, meaning that the twisted wire bit you put in Little Fluffy’s mouth will probably have pressure on it the vast majority of the time, with the wire creating more pressure points than a smooth snaffle would. This is further compounded by the thinness of the bit and some people use excessively thin wire snaffles, that in the wrong hands or wrong situation can do a lot of damage. I used to be one of these people. I used to ride my Arab in a thin twisted wire that, I kid you not, was probably not much thicker than a strand of barbed wire. I’ll never make that mistake again and I’m ashamed that I did it in the first place but said bit was suggested by a professional that I trusted. It never even crossed my mind how exactly harsh it would be and this is exactly the problem. People are naive to the equipment they use and why it works.

I think that one of the largest indicators of the ethical dilemma we have in terms of equipment we use on horses is that bitless options are more highly regulated in most disciplines than bits. You can go out in a leverage bit with an abrasive mouthpiece on cross country but hackamores are being banned on XC. You can ride in some pretty scary snaffles that may look safe from the cheekpieces but are harsh mouthpieces when you’re showing your hunter but can’t show bitless. Now, the show jumping set ups are even more scary and there seems to be no real limit to what they allow people to put on their horses. “They’re strong” people say, “You’ve clearly never ridden an upper level horse” I’m sure people will tell me from this post. And, okay, I’ll humour you. Yes, horses can be strong. Racehorses are strong but we still stop them in snaffles because we aren’t allowed to put on bandaid fixes. Now, sure I’ve also never ridden a Grand Prix horse but frankly, if my only option in getting around the 1.60m is to put an abrasive mouthpiece gag paired with a crank noseband (yes, I’ve seen this) then I honestly want no part in that. No matter how soft your hands are, the set up is harsh. Your horse isn’t softer in it because they “like” it, they’re softer in it because they have to be or it’ll hurt more.

There is a broad spectrum in terms of beliefs in the horse world. I’d like to think I fall somewhere in the middle. I’m not as radical as people who think horses shouldn’t be ridden at all or that bits are evil but I am swaying away from some of the “traditional” mindsets that encourage people to heavily discipline their horses for, you know, acting like horses or are quick to add equipment to “fix” an issue because it’s quicker than getting some dressage lessons. I’m not against bitting up but there has to be a limit. I fail to believe that there are horses out there who essentially need a serrated knife in their mouth to be in control and if that actually is the case for that horse, then there are some massive holes in their training.

At the end of the day, why do we ride and handle horses if their comfort isn’t something we are very much concerned about? Competing and using horses for sport is for OUR interests and honestly, even if our horses like what they do, it is still a selfish act to enter competitions. This isn’t to say that it’s wrong to do so but we need to be considerate of our horses, who work so hard for us, and do our best to ensure their health and comfort. We need to be aware that some equipment is just HARSH and not downplay it by saying “a bit is only as harsh as the hands” because NO, some bits are just HARSH and a lot of people use harsh bits harshly. A lot of trainers encourage students to bit up because it’s easier than training them how to ride properly and a lot of riders are riding in set ups that they do not have the hands for in the first place. These mythical, amazing soft hands that can handle any bit safely simply are not common enough to advocate for some the set ups we see used.

We also need to ask ourselves why our horses are acting “crazy” and being difficult to ride to the point where we need to keep adding more and more equipment. I’ve gotten on so many horses, many of which do not get enough turnout, and half the ride or more is just about them getting out pent up energy. They’re strong, they’re spooky, they’re technically being “bad” but is it really their fault if they spend 80-100% of their time in a stall, with no ability to get rid of excess energy? And then people go and try to “fix” them by adding more equipment instead of adding more turnout. More opportunity for expressing natural behaviours. A chance for better mental and physical health of the horse. But, nope, the bit will fix it. For the rider, at least, to enjoy themselves more. Not benefiting the horse at all. If we changed the way we brought up horses and cared for them day to day, I’d imagine a lot of these training hurdles wouldn’t be so prevalent anymore. If you deny your horse the ability to be a horse and consistently use harsher ways of asking rather than soft ones, they’re going to require a harsher means of equipment to respond. Horses who are started softly and allowed to get their sillies out in the field or at the very least, in paddock turnout, are a lot more likely to be softer, more focused and more responsive.

I guess all I’m saying here is that the Venn Diagram for horses who have good dressage foundations and nice day to day lifestyles and horses who do not require some of these crazy bitting set ups is a circle. It goes hand in hand. Far too many upper level riders are getting by in fairly soft snaffles or at least reasonable means of adding leverage as a “just in case” to justify some of the set ups we see people using. I think it’s ludicrous that people think it’s defensible to up the severity of a bit and then slap on dropped nosebands, cranks and other means of ensuring the horse cannot escape from the compounded pressure on their mouth. It’s too much. Especially when the people using these set ups are so often in denial of what actually makes a set up harsh. We spend so much time arguing about the hands rather than discussing the mechanics of the equipment even in the softer hands. Harsher bits are built to create a harsher response, even with soft hands, so let’s just please stop pretending.

Anyways, I’m thoroughly enjoying starting my horses under saddle and bringing them up slowly. The foundational aspect of starting horses is so incredibly important and I feel really blessed to have a large part of my job be focused on giving other people’s horses a soft start to allow them the best chance to be responsive and receptive without outrageous amounts of equipment being tacked on for control. As I grow my string of horses and continue to produce my personal horses with the intent of moving up the levels, equipment is something I will remain cautious of. I want my horses soft and well versed on the flat and if they start to get belligerent and strong over fences, the first thing I will do is change the exercises that I do. Who knows, maybe they will need to bit up one day but I most certainly won’t be using the types of bits that I used to use or that seem to have become acceptable on a fairly marked scale.

Choosing Your Battles in The Horse World

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It is a complete understatement to say the horse world is full of opinions. The horse world is overflowing with opinions, slapping you across the face with opinions, waking you up in the middle of the night with a megaphone full of opinions… You get where I’m going with this, horse people have no shortage of beliefs and are often exceptionally belligerent and self righteous with said beliefs, especially when they can share them from the comfort of their couch, hiding behind a computer screen. Suddenly, people become an awful lot more confident and knowledgeable than they may actually be. Suddenly, we have veterinary experts weighing in on the decisions of vets, even though said “experts” never even attended vet school or have any remote knowledge on equine biology. Same is to be said with training, we have people pushing their viewpoints on others when they have limited training experience themselves, pushing a cookie cutter approach onto different riding styles or different types of horses that they themselves lack the experience to manage. On the flip side, you also have professionals, experienced riders and otherwise who are set in their beliefs and think that their methods apply to everyone.

Now, let’s go into this because I think this needs to be said. People need to learn how to choose their battles. This applies to junior riders, amateur riders, people in lesson programs, people who own their own horses, professionals and so on and so forth. For example, let’s say you are anti-bit and believe all horses can go well bitless. You are entitled to this belief, even if it may be in poor taste to claim that every horse ever will be happier bitless no matter how soft of a bit they’re being ridden in. However, does it really make sense to be belligerent and aggressive towards the rider working through the training pyramid in a rubber snaffle? We’re in a world where professionals are making their horses’ mouths bleed with double twisted wire gags in public and yet people settle on the riders who are using soft equipment with good hands…. Really? Choose your battles. You may not like bits personally, but you can still respect people who are the lesser of what you view as an “evil”. If it is your goal to eventually see a day where archaic, harsh equipment is laid to rest, then you should be celebrating those who are riding with a proper flatwork foundation, with accepting horses and in soft equipment even if you do not personally believe in said equipment.

Now, the same can be said about most beliefs in the horse world. I personally think most horses are stalled far too much but it would make absolutely no sense to latch onto people who stall their horses overnight like it is the worst thing ever when some horses virtually never leave their stalls. Heck, I think most paddock turnout is too small and even wish my own horses had more space but who am I to get cranky about a horse being in a smaller in/out paddock 24/7 when they could be locked up in a 12x12 box instead? See what I mean about choosing battles? There is often always a worse way of doing things and it is time that as equestrian enthusiasts we learn how to weed through the pros and cons and realize that not everyone will be exactly the same as us, but we should be smart enough to realize when riders are taking steps of betterment.

More recently, I’ve found that the divide between those who take a more traditional approach to horse training versus those who are more on the natural horsemanship or positive reinforcement side of things is quite large. People who believe positive reinforcement (R+) is the best way often frame their beliefs in a manner that utterly discredits those who are not training in the exact same manner as them, I’ve seen some go as far to suggest that mixing R- (negative reinforcement) and R+ is inherently unfair to the horse, despite no research proving this. Now, as someone who uses BOTH R+ and R-, I am flabbergasted about this mindset. If someone is promoting positive reinforcement, should they not celebrate riders breaking from more traditional methods, that often use little to no positive reinforcement, and adding a reward based system to their riding? Is this not a move from the original status quo of bullying horses using far too much punishment and little rewards that people should be happy about? You would think, but unfortunately with much of the opinions within the horse world it seems that people expect riders to be 100% on their side or against them. It is weird and incredibly narrow minded.

Like I said, I have no shortage of my personal beliefs on what is the best way to train and keep horses. A lot of my beliefs are science based and as far as the turnout debate, it is a no brainer that stalling increases certain risks in horses depending on how much they’re stalled for but there is an inherent difference between the owner that is in denial, denying proven scientific facts and the owner who is constantly researching, working to better themselves and doing their best to offer their horse the best life with the resources and experience that they have. In working with rescues like Greener Pastures and in my discussions with SPCA officers, I’ve learned that there are always worse evils. While certain things I may disagree with or not find ideal, at the end of the day, it isn’t worthwhile to freak out over someone doing something that I personally wouldn’t do in my training program provided it isn’t harming the horse, promoting unfair training tactics or potentially endangering other riders.

I would encourage you to assess the situation before passing unnecessary criticism. So, you personally believe punishment should never be used for horses? Is it worth attacking someone for flicking their horse’s nose after biting them when there are people that rapid fire beat their horses for the same thing, continuing to do so long after the horse backs off? Probably not. Is it worth being upset over the use of soft bits when people abuse bitless options and there are all sorts of weird bitting contraptions on the market that probably shouldn’t be? Probably not.

Even if you don’t train the same as someone, you should be able to value the pros and cons and ethicality of their methods by critically looking at how their horses react to them and realistically, how “bad” on either end of the spectrum you view their training and animal husbandry methods to be. We cannot take steps to move forward into a more ethical, caring horse world if we are aggressive to anyone who isn’t completely on our side yet. We should be able to value the middle ground and celebrate it instead of turning the middle ground into a war zone and making people feel like they need to fit into one specific niche of training methods to be accepted. Creating such a great divide in situations that often do not deserve the outrage the receive only serves to build walls and make people defensive, rather than opening up a forum of discussion that would actually allow for learning. There is often something to be learned from both sides of any disagreement.

An Uncomfy Truth

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Let’s talk about something uncomfortable, something that many people have the bliss of ignoring until it ends up affecting them or someone who they care for. Let’s talk about the culture of bullying in the horse world, something that affects riders of all backgrounds, ages and disciplines. Then, let’s also talk about the different path that minorities walk in the horse world. A path that leads them to being discriminated for things they have no control over. For being mistreated for simply being who they are. Something that most of us are fortunate to never have to experience. This isn’t to say that those who fall into the majority groups in society do not experience any sort of hardship but more so that said hardships will not be in relation to the colour of their skin, their sexual orientation or gender identity or a disability.

A little known fact about me is that my biological father is black. I was born with pale skin and because of this have been fortunate to never experience racism directed at me simply because of the fact that I am white passing. I have, however, seen racism directed at the people of colour within my family and have watched other members of the horse world be discriminated against. I cannot even begin to say that I even remotely understand what it is like. I cannot even begin to claim that I understand what it feels like to have veiled racist comments directed at me or to miss out on opportunities solely because the people with the ability to give out said opportunities are living in the stone ages. I don’t get it. But I want to. I want to use my platform for good. I want to be able to speak out on things that other members of the horse world may not be able to in fear of backlash. In fear of how it’ll be received. So, let’s talk.

I’ve been on social media a long time and have to say that largely, bullying is not taken overly seriously. May it be online or in barns, I’ve personally seen it ignored on numerous occasions. It oftentimes seems that it has to get to the point where the victim is in serious jeopardy and considering harming themselves before suddenly people clue in and be like “Oh, wait, this is unacceptable.” Now, when those in charge cannot relate to the problems minorities experience, the time period for them to snap out of this daze and take it seriously seems to take even longer. I’ve seen people excuse discriminatory remarks on the basis of “Oh, they’re just joking” or “Oh, you weren’t meant to see it, it was meant to be private” as though that some how excuses the fact that people were being decidedly derogatory to a certain group of people and deliberately putting them down because of an aspect of who they are as a person over which they have no control. Frankly, this is complete and utter bull shit. We need to stop excusing intolerance and take it seriously no matter how small the audience. Even if a friend makes a hateful remark just to you, it speaks volumes about who they are as a person and what their views are. This type of mindset could be shut down right there before it is ever voiced to a larger crowd.

I think the biggest contributor to these types of hateful behaviours being excused is that those excusing said behaviour are often not affected by it. It is easy to say something isn’t a big deal or that someone shouldn’t take it to heart when such negativity is never directed at you. Most of us go about life never having to worry about being who we are. We can love who we love, be who we are, all without worrying about being targeted because of it. Others are not so lucky and while we may not be able to understand the paths they walk in life, we need to be sensitive enough to be there as a support group and shut down certain attitudes that we have allowed to continue for far too long in the horse world.

This is a call out post for any of you who have friends that may participate in bullying or discrimination. For any companies who have employees, ambassadors or sponsors who do this. We need to stop justifying these behaviours. We need to be better. This isn’t to say that we should be unaccepting of people’s ability to change when they make a mistake but that we shouldn’t downplay the severity of said “mistakes” or ignore when there is a pattern of behaviour that alludes to it being more than a mere lapse in thinking. By adopting a zero tolerance policy for cyber bullying, racist commentary, homophobia/transphobia and ableism, we make it uncomfortable for those with intolerant mindsets to openly share their hate speech. And uncomfortable they should be. Frankly, it is not our place to make people feel small for being different than whatever we personally believe to be a societal norm.

Now, onto the cyber bullying aspect of the horse world. This includes hate groups, posts in bad taste and more. I experienced this at an absolute peak in high school where I was relentlessly bullied by one individual in particular and, to be honest, despite the severity of such bullying and the number of people targeted by said person, it was never really taken seriously. We merely lucked out that no one was pushed to self harming or suicide but if it had gone that far, I can guarantee the tone of those in charge and with the ability to make change would change in the blink of an eye. So, why, are we so complacent prior to it getting to that point? Does someone need to be outwardly exhibiting signs of emotional agony before we decide that the bullying is ongoing long enough to be taken seriously? It really shouldn’t come to that. In other scenarios, in the past, I’m sure that I’ve been the bully as well. We have all said and done things we regret, but how seriously we take them and how remorseful we choose to be is what makes the difference. An apology is moot if it isn’t followed by a change in behaviour.

As a bystander, it can be uncomfortable to speak out but if you sit and watch people go on a tear and go out of their way to hurt and demean people, you are almost as responsible as the bully themselves. By standing by and listening to your friends be bullies, you are silently agreeing with them, reaffirming their opinions and making them feel comfortable in acting in the manner that they do. It can be hard to break free, especially when peer pressure is so strong. But, I think it is imperative that we remind ourselves how serious the consequences of mistreating others can be. I don’t believe that most people online and in the real world offline are out to destroy the lives of others or hurt those they speak ill of. I feel that most bullies would feel immense guilt if they bullied someone to their suicide, but hindsight is 20/20. We need to learn how to check ourselves and take a step back before ever getting close to ruining someone’s life. Humans by nature will say and do mean things at times but if it becomes a pattern of behaviour we condone in ourselves and others, it becomes a huge problem.

Speak out. Don’t be afraid to shutdown bullying when you see it. If we make a habit of calling out oppression when we see it and break free of the mob mentality, we make it a lot harder for those doing the bullying to do it comfortably. To believe it’s okay. We can make the horse world a safer place for children and adults alike. We can become more inclusive. The only thing stopping us from doing so is the insistence that this is “just the way the horse world is” or “it’s the internet, what do you expect?” because complacency is what provides bullies strength. Complacency allows those in the wrong to be free in continuing their actions. Complacency is harmful. We all need to do better, before it’s too late.

My Journey into the Thoroughbred Racing World

Galloping my favourite boy, Roger in 2018.

Galloping my favourite boy, Roger in 2018.

After a lengthy career on the Arabian Horse circuit, I eventually made the switch to yet another hot blooded breed, the Thoroughbred. My interest in Thoroughbreds first began with those off the track. I got my first Thoroughbred off of the racetrack when I was just 16 years old, a 4 year old mare who had two starts under her belt. She was the quintessential hot blooded, sensitive Thoroughbred mare and taught me a lot. Soon enough, I got another OTTB, this time a 5 year old with over 30 more starts under his belt, such handling on the track created an exceptional minded, sweet horse that was an absolute pleasure to retrain and was able to learn things like bridleless riding in a matter of weeks.

Eventually, my thirst for everything Thoroughbred extended past working with them off of the racetrack. I wanted to ride racehorses and like a LOT of OTTB owners out there, I naively assumed that my experience in working with them off the track would make the transition to gallop riding an easy one. I began contacting farms to see if they were looking for riders and/or willing to teach me. Eventually, I found someone who started the teaching process. My first ride on a Thoroughbred racehorse was a bit “fake” if you ask me, because I first got on a baby, who had never raced. This meant the horse was a lot easier to ride than literally anything else I would get on. I loped around without even knowing how to properly bridge my reins, despite the trainer’s attempts to teach me. The explanation given just wasn’t there. Eventually, I got on something that had raced and was promptly run off on. Not flat out, just faster than what I would’ve wanted to go. My arms were burning. My legs aching. I could taste blood. I had literally attempted to hold back a freight train without even effectively bridging my reins and still, I hadn’t had the full dose of reality of what it was like to ride a fit racehorse.

The trainer that started my initial gallop training only worked with me about three times before sustaining an injury rendering him incapable of teaching me. This is how I found my current boss, who back then agreed to try me out as a rider and finish my training but only after reminding me that only one out of every 10 Gallop riders they try actually work out. I was determined to be that one in 10 . Upon arriving to her farm for the first time, they were astonished by my lack of ability to hold a cross and wondered aloud: “How the hell were you galloping without one?” Definitely was on some pretty easy horses… That’s for sure. Anyways, within minutes they gave me the rundown of how to use a cross and I understood it this time. The first horse I went out on was a 4 year old dappled grey gelding named Travis. We did a jog lap in company with a more experienced rider, it went great. I was feeling confident, had my cross down pat. Awesome. We started our gallop lap, back tracking (going to the right) to keep the horses less strong. We made it down one long side and around a corner before Travis started to leave. I made the rookie mistake of panicking slightly, tensing and losing half of my cross. Travis was gone.

If you’ve ever galloped a Thoroughbred and I mean GALLOPED and I mean THOROUGHBRED, you’ll know the fear that comes with losing control of one at a break neck speed. No other breed of horse can open up like a Thoroughbred. You might think your Warmblood is fast, but no, they cannot gallop like a Thoroughbred. In fact, in the case of my Warmblood, they really don’t have a gallop at all… Not like that. Thoroughbreds are freaks of nature. The wind whips your face and brings tears to your eyes, you can feel them increasing speed with every stride, completely and utterly out of control and running faster than anything you’ve ever ridden before (unless you have, in fact, ridden a Thoroughbred racehorse on a racetrack). It is TERRIFYING. The prospect of falling off at that speed feels like a death sentence. I tried and tried to pull Travis up before the next corner but to no avail. We had about 5 seconds from him getting away from me to entering the corner and completely blowing through it (our training track does not have rails), off of the track, off of the 3 foot bank and into the tall grass. I thought we were going to fall. I thought I was going to break the legs of what I imagine was a very expensive horse. Luckily, he landed fine and pulled up in the grass. Some how, we didn’t hit any holes. Incredibly, incredibly lucky. And completely utterly terrifying.

I sheepishly brought Travis back onto the track, looking over where the head trainer and owner of this particular horse had been watching. I knew right then that I was not getting hired. This was it, I’d blown my chance. I was not the one in ten. The absolute worst thing that could have possibly happened on my first horse did happen. I tried to shove the disappointment aside and keep a positive attitude. My legs and arms felt like jelly and my muscles were visibly vibrating from the immense effort they had put forth to stop Travis, the adrenaline and the fear.

Well, that was fast. Do you want to get on another?

Shocked by the offer to ride again and although part of me wanted to decline it, due to my muscular fatigue and the fear that the same thing would happen all over again, I said yes. Yes, of course. I knew that if I said no, that was the end right there, I wouldn’t be welcomed back. The next horse I got on was young and had not yet raced. This time, it went well, no bolting. And so, I earned another chance and was allowed back to ride at this farm.

The learning curve for gallop riding is steep. You either start to get it or don’t. You have to figure it out pretty damn quick or bolting is a frequent occurrence. I got on easier horses for the next few days of learning to gallop but eventually the time came where I was asked: “Do you want to get on Travis again?” I didn’t, but I said yes anyways. My heart was pounding the first time I got back on him and I’ll admit, I was pretty scared of the same thing happening again but ending worse. I was prepared this time, though, and while he was still very strong, he was controllable and from overcoming my fear, getting on him again and having it go well, my confidence began to grow. I started to get thrown on harder horses before I was completely thrown to the wolves a month into my gallop riding when the head gallop rider at the time went on vacation for over a month. I was galloping at least 10 horses a day, 6 days week, many of them a lot more difficult to ride than the ones we had now. I did get run off on a few more times. Just not as fast. Not as out of control and everyday, I learned more and more tactics on how to control a bolting horse or how to stay on a horse that was completely and utterly losing its marbles.

That entire first year of galloping, I never stopped being sore. By my second year, getting fit again after a winter break was easier. I had an easier time maintaining the horses. I still got taken for a ride by a few horses that year. First was Indy, an absolute freight train of a gelding built like a linebacker. He took me for a blitz down one long side, making me reminisce about Travis for a short time before I got him pulled back and under control. Next, a horse we had in for the beginning of the season, named Spinner, took off on me right when I was in the middle of pulling her up and we blasted by the other gallop rider and all the way to the back corner of the track before pulling up. Every time this happened, my heart was racing and I was incredibly alert. Afraid. Utterly aware of the exceptional athleticism of the Thoroughbred racehorse and just how quickly they can accelerate and get away from you.

Indy, the freight train.

Indy, the freight train.

The more I learned about their athleticism through their ability to run like the wind in the blink of an eye or their ability to be airborne and turned around in .2 seconds, the more I respected the Thoroughbred horse. They can walk on two legs, you know. They can also bronc better than a lot of the rankest horses and do all sorts of acrobatics that would probably astonish the average person. These horses are too athletic for their own good and you constantly have to be aware of what you’re doing and ready to think yourself out of a dangerous situation in a matter of seconds. You don’t have time to question yourself, you have to make a decision and just do whatever you can to diffuse whatever situation you find yourself in this time. You have to be clever and confident in your decisions. You have to be able to swing your leg over yet another horse after the last one scared the shit out of you. This job really isn’t for the faint of heart and if I hadn’t been so cocky going into it, maybe I would’ve done better. I don’t think anyone can fully paint the picture of how strong, agile and active these horses are until you’re physically on one. It isn’t like a jumper rider saying “oh, my horse is strong” , the comparison is moot. Your horse who is arena broke and never ridden on a track where they can accelerate to their full speed is nowhere near as strong as a racehorse.

My third season galloping was the first one where I never got bolted on. Sure, horses would scoot forward for a few strides or spook. Sure, I had lots of moments where my horses showed me some incredible acrobatic movements, but, I never lost control of one. Being bolted on by a Thoroughbred far outweighs any fear I’ve ever had in moments where I’ve almost been bronced off, reared on or in some cases, nearly had horses flipped on me. Bolting at mach 10 still takes the cake for the most absolutely terrifying thing ever, especially when it is on a private track, with no rails and no outrider to come and save you.

I’m now starting my fourth season as a gallop rider and am pleased to say that we have some of the nicest horses we’ve ever had. A lot of the silliest and strongest ones have either calmed down and grown up or have moved onto different trainers or different careers. In getting on the number of horses I have the last 4 seasons, though, I’ve learned an incredible amount about quick thinking, problem solving and bravery. Out on the racetrack, you cannot plan or prepare for things that will happen to you. There are far too many variables. Different things that can set your mount off. You just have to be ready to deal with them when the come. Galloping racehorses has vastly improved me as a rider. If I can stay on in a paper thin gallop saddle, I can stay on in a regular English saddle. If someone’s show horse tries to bolt on me, I laugh and ask them why they dare test me when I get on racehorses. I’m more prepared to handle situations that would have scared the daylights out of me in the past and I’ve learned a ridiculous amount about wound and leg care along with wrapping and other aspects of taking care of athletes or rehabbing them from injury.

So, to OTTB owners out there interested in galloping: Do not be like me. Do not kid yourself into thinking that riding your OTTB around the arena is even remotely preparing you for the racetrack. I would get on even some of our silliest horses bareback in a halter in an arena, I don’t care, where can they really go? The racetrack is another story. Make sure you’re physically fit and I mean FIT if you want to have the easiest time picking up galloping. I’m fitter than I’ve ever been in my life right now, from galloping and riding dressage and because of this, galloping has gotten easier and easier for me every year. Make sure you’re brave. Don’t kid yourself, be honest. If bucking, spooking, rearing etc scare you in an arena, I can promise you’ll it’ll be a lot more terrifying on a racetrack, especially when dozens of young horses are galloping and being silly around you, thereby further setting off the horse you’re on. Galloping is very much the art of just sitting there as quietly as possible, waiting for the bomb between your legs to diffuse itself. People who have a tendency to grab onto their horses’ mouths, tense or get nervous often make the situation much worse, just like I did with Travis.

I don’t fall often, but when I do, you can pretty much guarantee that it’ll be at the racetrack. One of the babies we had last year dumped me more times than I stayed on. He would literally throw his head down and pull my whole body over his head while broncing. Never trust a 17.2hh baby horse. Other times, horses have been galloping and then suddenly decide to start their reining career with an impressive sliding stop and roll back, leaving me hovering mid air on an invisible horse much like Mermaid Man, before lightly hitting the ground and wondering where the hell my horse went. Luckily, none of my falls have really been anything dangerous. The worst of them have just gotten the wind knocked out of me, I’ve been very lucky. My worst injuries have been from sport horses (like my own, the lovely Milo). But, injuries on the track certainly are not uncommon and as far as jobs go, gallop riding is definitely the most dangerous that I’ve had. I’ll keep you guys posted how this year goes for falls, so far we are looking good!

The other thing to keep in mind when pursuing a career as a gallop rider, or any type of rider, for that matter, is that your position is largely irreplaceable. To put this in perspective, it means that unlike with a food service job or customer service, you can’t just call in sick… Unless you’re like, actually dying. Unless you’re working alongside a group of other gallop riders with flexible availability, farms can’t just call in someone to ride and work the horses like you do. They simply can’t. This year, I have more help than I did in the past but while working as the main gallop rider for this farm, I’ve ridden while horribly hungover, while sick and with a broken hand (not from the racehorses but from my shithead show horse, Milo). The same goes for a lot of jobs in the horse industry because no one can replace your knowledge of the horses you work with and your knowledge of the job in general. This job, for many years, was a 6 day a week job waking up early and heading right into training. At the beginning of the previous two seasons, I was working 7 days a week. This year, because the trainer has cut back the amount of horses and because I’m pursuing more work in the sport horse realm of the industry, I won’t be galloping quite as much once the races start but generally speaking, this is a job that you are at day in and day out. You have to remember that people count on you and if you get into the industry, you really don’t want to let them down. It has taught me a lot about a work ethic because of this and has really forced me to learn the value of hard work and

You can be an absolutely incredible rider, too, and never be able to pick up galloping. Some of the best riders I’ve ever known have struggled to pick up the knack of holding back a racehorse. It doesn’t make them bad riders, just a different kind of rider. People who boldly ride at 1.40m jumps without batting an eye may be terrified when they get on a 3 year old ticking time bomb with a rearing problem. It takes a certain type of rider, perhaps a crazy one, or one who is willing to ignore their fear like I did until it subsides completely (honestly, if we took a scan of my brain during hectic rides, people would probably be concerned at the lack of reactivity at this point… sometimes, it concerns me).

Getting into the racing world has absolutely changed me as a rider for the better. Knowing how these horses are handled and ridden on the track has greatly improved my ability to retrain them for new careers and to problem solve when certain behaviours arrive. It has also given me an immense appreciation for the Thoroughbred horse and how absolutely incredible they are. I stated before that they can be hard to manage on the track, which is true, but there are so many things about young Thoroughbred racehorses that are superior to even seasoned show horses. These horses see so much at the track that for their age, they often are not really spooky. Also, the biggest thing I’ve noticed this year is their adaptability. Our horses went from October to February off to being tacked up and immediately having a rider legged up on them. Even my show horse would have a bronc fit and act like he’d never seen a saddle before, let alone a rider, but not these racehorses. They march out to the track like they’ve never had time off and cope with coming back into worth like all stars, no lunging required. Our horses roar around the track next to a busy road, ignoring semi trucks and load vehicles. Going past coyotes when they make their way onto the track. While they scare and humble me sometimes, Thoroughbred racehorses are truly incredible horses and there isn’t any other breed that I would feel safer on out on the track, getting on after months off.

Thoroughbreds are it.

Self Doubt in Riding: Everyone has it

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We watch riders of all different levels, in all different disciplines, completing some truly amazing feats. We see people’s work with problem horses, turning them into something incredible, a far cry from what they used to be. We watch our idols with utter respect, viewing them as unwaveringly confident, people who are up for anything and ready to handle all sorts of different horses, ride through all sorts of different questions without batting an eye. We assume that those we look up to have it all figured out, that they never question themselves, that they never have lapses in their confidence or their own judgment. We couldn’t be more wrong.

There is the assumption that once a rider hits a certain level of training or competition, they’re set and have it all figured out. There is the idea that once a rider declares as professional, they no longer need guidance and are able to problem solve everything on there own, that they have utter confidence in their abilities at all times. While the need for outside support starts to dissipate more as riders gain experience, the belief that riders above your skill level no longer experience lapses in their confidence is completely untrue. Self doubt is something that everyone on this planet experiences and will continue to experience, even the people at the top of the top within their respective talents. Self-assurance grows with experience, but life is not a linear journey and there will always be instances that arise where we start to doubt our decision making or our ability to accomplish a certain feat. Such thoughts typically arise during the tough parts of life and often times, the people experiencing said thoughts never vocalize them, they remain internal, thus no one ever really finds out that said person was doubting their own abilities.

Let’s talk about me, for example. I have tons of videos of me riding through horses’ crazy antics. I typically seem to purchase horses straight off the racetrack or rescued horses that come with baggage. Because of this, a lot of the positive comments on these types of videos are about me being brave or people wishing that they had my confidence. It is a funny thing to read, people assuming that my confidence is concrete, that in any given scenario, I haven’t ever experienced hardship or doubt. Let’s take my main competition horse, Milo, for example. Dealing with him has been a ride and a half. I started out with a scrawny little two year old who has now developed into a coming seven year old that is a far cry from the horse I initially adopted. Along this journey of training him, I have hit a ridiculous amount of road blocks and I sure as hell have doubted myself and my abilities. Training young horses is generally a ton of small steps forward and in some instances, a landslide backwards. When I first began working with Milo, when things wouldn’t come together quickly or when we had bad days, I always blamed myself. I was frustrated, convinced that I would never have a horse who would be able to do this or that. I only really voiced such thoughts to my mother, who luckily was around to act like a voice of reason. My amount of self doubt during the initial year or so of having Milo was high. I’d never closely worked with a horse who had so much baggage, so much reactivity and it was a steep learning curve. But, looking back, I do wish I’d had more faith in my abilities and more patience with what I was doing.

My lack of patience is largely directed at myself and to this day, when I feel impatient with how slowly training is moving along, my first go to is to blame me. I’m doing something wrong. Someone else could do this better, why is this not happening quicker for me? I had similar concerns in my work with Simon, my most recent rescued problem horse who had an extreme fear of people when he arrived and could not be touched let alone haltered or really handled by people. Simon’s arrival was a bit of a shock. I’d bought him at an auction where he was going to otherwise sell to a kill buyer. I really did not have much information on him but much of the horses there had been handled and at least halter broke, so I had the assumption that he would at least be halter broke (really stupid, do not have any standards when buying from an auction). It was a rude awakening when he arrived. Achieving the initial contact was tedious. He wanted nothing to do with people at all. He could be nasty, aggressive and would attack if he felt threatened. As weeks went by, the progress was at a snail’s pace. Especially when being limited by the fact that the horses were in quarantine and could only be in a specific area, I could not use a round pen and I had another horse loose with him while trying to work with him, otherwise he would try to jump over the stall door to escape. I told my mom that I didn’t ever believe Simon would get better. That he hated me. That I must be doing something wrong. But, the key here is that while saying all of these things, I never gave up. Putting myself down and doubting myself was the outlet for the frustration I was feeling with the lack of progress.

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It seemed to happen all at once. Suddenly, Simon was at the door waiting for me. Letting me pet him. Taking treats out of my hand calmly, without the aggression he had in the beginning. Eventually, being haltered. Then, being halter broke. Then, wearing a blanket. Eventually, it was him carrying me as a rider and being an incredible student for his first rides under saddle, a sensible young horse who was a far cry from the terrified, aggressive pony that I’d initially worked with. What I was doing DID work, it just happened very very slowly, then all at once after initial contact was made. I hadn’t ever really had the opportunity to work with a feral pony like Simon, though. I doubted my ability to do right by him because of the time it took to do so. But, I never pushed him too hard. I patiently waited for him to take treats out of my hand and spent an awful lot of hours just sitting near him so he would have to get used to my preference and eventually, eat his food that was near me. Nothing I did was negatively affecting the horse, other than minimal stress that came with his fear of me being present. And yet, I blamed myself and was ridiculously hard on myself for not having the exact same timeline as other trainers, even though other trainers were working with different horses, different resources and had varying levels of experience.

I would assume that most riders and trainers, even Olympians, would experience doubts like I have. Nerves when entering the show ring, fear that they won’t succeed, that they won’t do right by the people who are out there cheering them on. Worries that client horses are not moving on quick enough, that perhaps they are not the right fit for them. Even in cases where you have lots of experience, doubting yourself during hard times is perfectly normal. In fact, I would question people who claim to never had feelings of doubt, considering questioning oneself in such a dangerous sport is probably a large part of ensuring safety. Anyways, couple this uncertainty with mental health issues like anxiety or depression and you’ve got the perfect cocktail of self doubt. It is important to be able to take that step back and realize where your negative thoughts are going. Realize what is connected to your own personal anxieties or what leads you on the path to self-deprecation. For me, largely these doubts are linked to my anxiety disorder. I often doubt my ability to do the most minuscule of tasks, things I’ve done over and over again with my eyes closed. I doubt my ability to properly latch the gate that I latch everyday without fail. I doubt my ability to set my alarm in the morning, despite the fact that 99.9% of the time when I double check, it is set. I doubt my ability to send texts to the right people, checking in a panic in the off chance I sent one to a complete stranger or the wrong person in my contacts. I doubt myself in pretty much any aspect of my life that you could possibly think of. I’m aware of it and I’m largely aware of the cause of it, but I still do it. Constantly. And guess what? Lots of people do. You are not alone.

So, here’s to sparking a conversation related to the realities of living life in general but even more so when working with such unpredictable animals. Doubt is normal. Anxiety is an incredibly normal feeling and many of the riders and trainers who you respect experience the feeling of anxiety or in a lot of cases, might even have an actual anxiety disorder. I can also attest to the fact that there are a number of riders who continue to work and grind whilst battling depression. Everyone has their road blocks. Their issues that they are working through. Everyone doubts themselves sometimes. It is just important to never let that prevent you from continuing to try.

Don’t be afraid to own your anxieties. Don’t be afraid to be open about your doubts. There is a whole crowd of people just like you that will exhale deeply with relief when you admit to such common human characteristics that many people ignore and pretend don’t exist. So, hi there, I hear you. I doubt myself too and I know how hard it can be to try to make it in the horse world while experiencing personal anxieties along with worrying about the judgments of others. I know what it’s like and want you to know that you are not alone, far from it, actually.



Have Healthy Competition... With Yourself

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Equestrians are always on the pursuit of perfection. Having exceptional rides, perfect equitation and a horse who always does what it is told. Often times, we buy into watching the videos of other riders, professionals and junior/amateurs alike. We watch the progress of other riders on social media, mainly watching what realistically is their highlight reels, and apply it to ourselves. We look at people riding horses with different levels of experience, varying quirks and completely different talents but choose to hold ourselves and our horses to similar standards. Instead of appreciating the few steps of improvement that occur per ride, as is usual with green horses and in our riding skills, we focus on what we are not doing. What other people are doing with their own mounts that we have yet to do with ours. We focus on the end goal and forget all about the journey to get there.

Such mindsets are far too often bred by the unrealistic expectations that equestrians impose on each other. It seems like nowadays, people would rather pretend that they never experience hardships or plateaus in their riding and choose to target those who may share the reality of their riding online. Even in cases where riders are experiencing difficulties due to lack of support, equestrians often turn to attacking each other rather than remaining understanding and offering a helping hand. The fact of the matter is that riding is hard. There is a ridiculous amount of things that riders learn over the course of many many years and no matter how much you improve or how good you get, there are always ways to be better. Do better. It is a constant competition, a race with ourselves, but instead of competing with ourselves, many of us choose to compare our learning journey to that of people we largely do not know. Or, even if we do, who in most cases are on an entirely different path than us in one way or another. This leads to poor self esteem and riders being too hard on themselves, forgetting about the things they’ve done correctly, gotten better at or what they’ve learned recently. They negate their improvements that are specific to their riding and instead focus on what they can’t do. What other riders are doing better. It is so ridiculously hard to stay motivated if the focus is on others and what they’re doing.

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By shifting away from what you have improved on and how you’ve grown as a rider in the weeks, months, or years you have been riding, you are choosing to stall your progress with negative thinking. Staying motivated in riding is so much about being aware of more than just your weaknesses. You need to know your strengths. Instead of constantly reminding yourself of what you have yet to fix in your riding, think about what you’ve improved. What you’ve mastered. The little things that you’ve done that sets you apart from the rider that you used to be previously. It can be something as small as getting a nice stride of sitting trot, getting that much better at posting the trot. Sitting your first canter. Cantering over your first ground pole. Anything from the basics to the upper levels of mastery in the horse world such as starting to understand the building blocks to developing good lead changes, jumping around large tracks or teaching a horse the piaffe. Improvement is totally relative to where you are in your riding career and what sort of obstacles yourself and your horse experience that are specific to BOTH OF YOU. No one else will be the exact same as you. Horses and riders have different mental blocks or physical blocks. Your friend, Stacy, may have lovely heels that always stay down while you struggle with keeping your weight in your heels. Some people have greater flexibility and thus have an easier means of achieving certain aspects of equitation, while some riders may have an easier time getting their legs in the correct position, perhaps your strengths lie in your shoulders, your seat or your hands. That is totally okay.

Try to break the negative mindset. While remaining mindful of what the most pressing areas for improvement are is something that is important, also remind yourself of your strengths at the same time. Break the negative cycle. Yes, you may need work on tightening up your leg. That’s great that you are aware of it and focused on fixing it, you should be proud of your level of motivation and ability to self critique. Good for you. Wanting to improve is such an important aspect of good horsemanship. Now, remind yourself of what you’ve gotten better at. Perhaps, you’re having an easier time controlling your horse’s speed or getting the correct distance. Applaud yourself. Give yourself a pat on the back. Riding is hard, some people will never swing their leg over a horse in fear of riding. You’re doing something a lot of people will never attempt. You are focused and motivated and want to improve in a sport where many people give up or grow out of it. YOU ARE SPECIAL.

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Stop seeking the approval of others. There will always be critics. Realistically, if you have a positive outlook on riding, are kind to your horses and want to improve, what reason do people ACTUALLY have to critique you. Sure, they can be petty, but they’re taking time out of their day to be rude to someone who is actively bettering themselves while they are horses out there suffering because of the people who refuse to do the same. They are choosing to say ugly words instead of focusing on themselves and being aware of the fact that other riders are doing the exact same and do not need harsh criticism. Why did you get into riding? I’m guessing for yourself, not other people. Anyone who serves only to belittle you and make you feel bad about yourself is not out to help you improve or better your riding. Look to those in your life who are motivated to make you a better rider and who elevate you, not knock you down.

Set realistic goals. Don’t beat yourself up for bad rides or setbacks. Everyone has them. Everyone. Many people just like to pretend they don’t. Even the best riders you know have had their struggles or felt stuck in their riding. No one is on a constant upward trend of improvement. If this sport were that easy, it would be a lot more boring. Having self worth is important and do not be afraid to be proud of yourself. Do not be ashamed for celebrating goals. Anyone who puts down your personal growth because of how it compares to theirs is not someone you want in your life. Everyone in the horse world was once a beginner and frankly, the best riders out there do not waste their time going out of their way to try to make those who are learning feel small.

In horses, ignorance is not bliss. No question you will ever ask is a stupid question. Anyone who makes you feel dumb for seeking knowledge, for wanting to educate yourself, is the person at fault. Not you. By asking questions and actually looking for the correct answers to things you’ve yet to learn, you are merely broadening your perspective on the horse world and filling in what would otherwise be holes in your knowledge base. So, please, ask lots of questions. Bring other riders up instead of down and, most importantly, remind yourself of how awesome you are and what things you are doing great. Don’t be afraid to celebrate your progress. Don’t be afraid to remind yourself you are worthy of success and that great things will happen if you keep working hard and being motivated to learn. Instead of fixating on beating other riders, focus on beating the rider you were yesterday.

There is Nothing Like a Thoroughbred

George AKA Bionic, 2019 RRP Horse.

George AKA Bionic, 2019 RRP Horse.

When I was fifteen, I met my first OTTB. Little did I know that this would be a life changing event, the beginning of a grand passion and the start of many lessons that these horses would teach me. While I had been riding a while, I was inexperienced with OTTBs and looking back, it definitely showed. My first OTTB that I trained was a 4 year old mare who I named Maya. She raced a handful of times under the name Princess Peanut and was an absolutely atrocious racehorse. Maya was your stereotypical Thoroughbred, hot headed and sensitive. Looking back, I realize now that much of this sensitivity could be attributed to the fact that she would have definitively needed treatment for ulcers, something that was overlooked due to my lack of experience with the breed. In spite of this, she tried her heart out for me, doing everything I asked and always trying her best even if she was stressed and confused. Shortly after selling her onto a new sport horse home, I got my second OTTB. A 5 year old gelding who I named Dallas, he had a fairly successful racing career under the name Alybye on Fire. Dallas was a gentleman. Within a month since his last race, I was riding him bridleless. He was incredibly well mannered, kind and gentle. He did not spook and went from racehorse to teaching beginners the ropes of riding in a manner of months under an inexperienced and youthful trainer. I cannot take credit for much of what these horses offered me, they learned it all at the track and only now, 8 years later, do I realize how very unusual OTTBs are.

You see, a lot of people underestimate these horses. They do not realize how very much Thoroughbreds are exposed to in their racing days, from a very young age. The racetrack is a very loud and busy place with many of the horses at it being under 5 years of age. Just babies. Everyday, these horses are exercised in a high traffic area with many other young horses and often, crowds of people nearby. The racetrack is livelier and busier than most show venues a lot of horses will ever see but especially more than the first shows many people take their young horses out to. Thoroughbreds have to learn to cope with high traffic situations and loud noises. By the time they make it into an actual race, they’ve gotten used to being in the paddock prior to races with crowds of people watching them, loudly talking, pointing and in some cases, waving objects around. The people in attendance of races often are not horse people. They have no etiquette and the horses have to learn to cope with the unexpected. How to deal with high stress situations. Racehorses have to stay focused on their jobs whilst loud crowds are yelling and cheering, while people are waving and jumping around from the sidelines. They have to get used to running at breakneck speeds through traffic and not fear other horses in close vicinity of them. They learn how to be ponied from a very young age and do so in front of huge crowds prior to their races. They also are expected to stand for wrapping, poulticing and a number of other treatments while tied, all in a very busy environment. Most young horses of other breeds are exposed to a fraction of the same things.

In Fine Fashion, 2015 filly. First ride off the track, bridleless.

In Fine Fashion, 2015 filly. First ride off the track, bridleless.

By the time racehorses retire, they’ve seen a lot and learned a lot about the life of racing only to go onto another completely different career and in most cases, be very good at it. Thoroughbreds go from racehorse to show horse in a matter of months, adjusting to their new lifestyles with an ease that people should respect, even if their OTTBs exhibit stress whilst being introduced to said new lifestyle. It is such a great shift in the routine they once new and the job they once did that it is amazing to look at how fast these horses come around when under the right handler and trainer. Thoroughbreds try their heart out in a number of different careers and are quite literally the jack of all trades in a number of senses. Few other breeds start out their ridden careers in a polarizingly different career than the one they eventually settle into. Few other breeds jump to such different lifestyles in such a short period of time. The versatility of the Thoroughbred and their ability to adjust and learn with such willingness is really something to recognize. Time and time again, we see the truly incredible nature of this breed and their ability and willingness to learn and try their hearts out.

Though the popularity of the OTTB is increasing, the Thoroughbred, especially off the track, is far too often discounted in terms of ability and attitude. People stereotype the Thoroughbred as hot headed and crazy, making it not uncommon to see ads specifically stating “no Thoroughbreds” even if a Thoroughbred may be best suited to the job they are looking to fill. This is a travesty. The stereotypical Thoroughbred that no one seems to like only really comes into existence with poor handlers. You can find the very same anxious, fried horse in a number of difference breeds and realistically, the only thing to blame is more often than not the people who created such a horse in the first place. Thoroughbreds are typically more sensitive mounts but such sensitivity is an asset to a rider with the ability to be soft and know how to appropriately handle such an intelligent and willing animal. Thoroughbreds are less resilient to harsh handling and rough riders, less resilient to confusing aids and training holes. They are thinkers and if they are constantly told that they’re giving the wrong answer with no means to lead them to the right answer, they lose their minds and rightfully so.

Pic credit to @em.vibeequine on Instagram. OTTB competing to 2* level in New Zealand.

Pic credit to @em.vibeequine on Instagram. OTTB competing to 2* level in New Zealand.

I am a firm believer that a Thoroughbred can do anything. I’ve had consistently lovely horses off of the racetrack who have been able to cope with and handle numerous situations that I would not trust the vast majority of young horses in any other breed with. This isn’t because I’ve “lucked out” with what I’ve gotten, it is because of how they have been brought along. The more experience I gain with Thoroughbreds, they better they have been turning out. They more they’ve been able to do. The more unflappable they have been… And, honestly, once they get settled into their new lifestyles, it has just been so incredibly easy to get them to the point where they don’t bat an eye over things like dragging a tarp bridleless… Things that scare the pants off of much older, more experienced horses onlooking from their fields. Thoroughbreds are the greatest.

Before anyone gets offended, I totally understand breed preferences. As I’m sure you can tell by this post, I have my preferences. However, discounting the talent and abilities exhibited by these horses is unwarranted. Thoroughbreds have the talent and the try to get to the upper levels of many different sports, even more notably, a lot of them do it after having an entire career in racing. Incredible. Thoroughbreds used to be the mount of choice back in the day for disciplines like Show Jumping and Hunter/Jumper. Now, with the increasing popularity of Warmbloods, people often write off said talent despite the prevalence and success of Thoroughbreds in the past and present, most notably in eventing disciplines. And… they also tend to forget about the fact that Thoroughbreds are one of the reasons why and how Warmbloods exist today. The level of athleticism it takes a horse to compete at, let’s say, the 4* event level is exceptionally high. There is a reason why so many people choose to do that on a purebred Thoroughbred or at least, a Warmblood with lots of blood. Thoroughbreds have earned their place as a formidably talented breed that has exceptional resilience and ability to move from one career to another in the blink of an eye.

Thoroughbreds are stoic. They are often willing to run themselves into the ground if they are asked, which I suppose, is a problem if people are willing to take advantage of that. However, the amount of try these horses exhibit and the honesty and love they show their owners is truly something else. Thoroughbreds, of any breed, are the breed I trust the most to jump out of virtually any situation. Once they figure out their job and what it is all about, they often will go even when they shouldn’t. The same is to be said for the many other disciplines Thoroughbreds are seen in, everything from show jumping to polo to eventing to barrel racing and more… Thoroughbreds have been seen coming off the track and participating in a variety of entirely different disciplines and doing it well.

Penny’s Bracken, a 2014 OTTB. Went from racehorse to unflappable riding horse in 1.5 years. Was viewed by the Vancouver Police Department for a position as police horse, the first OTTB they’ve considered due to his sales video. Unfortunately, they d…

Penny’s Bracken, a 2014 OTTB. Went from racehorse to unflappable riding horse in 1.5 years. Was viewed by the Vancouver Police Department for a position as police horse, the first OTTB they’ve considered due to his sales video. Unfortunately, they decided his build was too slight for the job but he did have the brain for it.

The timing of this post has everything to do with the Thoroughbred Makeover Project. If you have not heard of it and especially if you are someone who for whatever reason dislikes Thoroughbreds, go have a look at some of the finales from last year and see how many incredible Thoroughbreds there are excelling in numerous different sports in a matter of months since their last race. It is truly humbling to see what these horses can do and what they continue to do. I am absolutely ecstatic to have been accepted as one of the trainers for the 2019 Thoroughbred Makeover. It is an absolute dream come true to be able to represent the Thoroughbred breed and show off the talents of OTTBs in their new careers. I am so incredibly lucky to have a very special horse to do it on, too, Bionic AKA George, a 2015 BC-bred gelding. I galloped George while he was racing and he has always been a classy gentleman, completely unflappable and cool as a cucumber while he went around with the gaits of a dressage horse and impeccable self carriage. George’s racing career was short lived but not unsuccessful, only having raced for his 3y/o year. I bought George after his owner mentioned considering selling him as a sport horse, due to risk of him being claimed on the racetrack and because of his aptitude as a sport horse. Of course, I jumped at the opportunity and here we are.

Ironically, Mr. Bionic is a bit of a bionic horse. George was found to have some bone chips after his racing connections decided to x-ray him right before my purchase due to a windpuff. George had never taken a lame step and his only evidence of having anything wrong was the windpuff and some slight heat in one leg. Upon further inspection after purchase, we x-rayed the rest of his legs and found that he had more than 1 bone chip. The grade of his injury should have definitively caused acute lameness, as per the vet. George went about his job as a racehorse with the utmost happiness and with no indication of there being anything wrong, furthering my point regarding the stoicism and resilience of the Thoroughbred. Before people jump to blame the racing industry for George’s injuries, I want to make something clear. As far as racehorses go, George’s career was low intensity and he was given plenty of time to grow up. There are plenty of horses whom I’ve personally ridden that raced as 2 year olds and raced more and retired without any injuries, unfortunately, in George’s case, he was just unlucky, like some horses are. Bone chips are something that have been found in horses before they’ve even begun a sport career. For him, I’m thankful that he had such loving and caring connections who cared to look further into him despite the absence of lameness.

Thoroughbreds simply are not the anxious, pansy-like creatures so many people make them out to be. Sure, some are, but the stereotype doesn’t prove true in the manner a lot of non-Thoroughbred folk believe it does. Like I said, crazy Thoroughbreds are often made crazy by people. Events like the Retired Racehorse Project serve as evidence for how truly incredible these horses are and how exceptionally talented they are. I hope people will start to move towards respecting the Thoroughbred breed and their ability to change careers with such success, even if they may not personally be a fan of Thoroughbreds. Thoroughbreds are not inferior to Warmbloods and other sport horse breeds. They are not “the poor man’s Warmblood.” They are magnificent athletes with a whole lot of versatility. Even if I were to become a millionaire tomorrow, you would still catch me with a barn full of Thoroughbreds. There is nothing like a Thoroughbred.


Keep up to date with George and I’s progress in our journey to the Thoroughbred Makeover in Kentucky. We will be travelling all of the way from BC, Canada (over 4,000km) to attend the Makeover. Hauling costs are steep so we are starting out fundraising off with some fun designs dedicated to George, you can check them out HERE

You can follow George’s progress on my Instagram and Facebook page.